Tuesday, September 29, 2009

This is why we need Healthcare reform...NOW...

Monique Zimmerman-Stein has been nearly blind for the last two years from Stickler syndrome, a rare genetic disorder. She recently decided to forego her own treatment to save funds to treat her two daughters, who also suffer from the condition, reports Lane DeGregory of the St. Petersburg Times.

The family is covered under husband Gary's Blue Cross/Blue Shield plan, but that coverage only pays for 80 percent of medical expenses.

She will no longer get treatment to preserve that last slice of light. The injections that might help cost $380 after insurance, and she needs one every six weeks. She could be spending that money on her daughters' care.

If forgoing treatment might help them see, she said, "That's a choice any mom would make."

The expensive care has already forced the family out of their home, which was foreclosed, and forced them to sell their furniture and to cash in their life insurance.

Tampabay.com put together an excellent video to accompany the story:

A family fallen on hard times after their 12-year-old daughter was diagnosed with a brainstem tumor has been served foreclosure papers, reports Elizabeth Prann of local NBC affiliate WJHG.

Amber Howard underwent surgery that could only remove part of the tumor. Her father, Neil, is the only member of the family who is able to work. Amber's weak immune system requires home-schooling. But the Howards don't let the situation keep them down.

The Howard family is fascinatingly optimistic, each one picking up the other when he or she is down.

"When she has a good day, that's when we charge our batteries!"

And if it's one thing none of them is lost is hope.

Amber is living proof.

"She said to me, God came to me mom. He told me, it's not my time. But I said, you can't remember Amber, you were asleep. She said no Mom, I remember! He came over, God came over and he talked to me, he said everything would be OK, it's just not my time," Shawn said.

Kenneth Hoagland, of Nashville, Tenn., was put in jail for getting a cold, reports Janell Ross of the Tennessean. Hoagland, previously bankrupted by a week-long stay in a hospital for his diabetes, was on a health insurance waiting period for a new job when what started as a cold landed him in a hospital for two days with a $1,200 tab. He could not pay, was afraid to miss work to show up in court, and was arrested on what's known as a "body attachment."

"They fingerprinted me, took my picture and asked some questions about my medical history," he said. "When the guy who tested (my blood sugar) asked me why I was there and I told him ... he said, 'I didn't know we did that in this country.' I told him, 'Until now, I didn't either.' "
The Tennessean reports that "Hoagland, 36, is one of the hundreds of thousands of Americans -- insured and uninsured -- facing collection suits, wage garnishments and, more rarely, trips to jail because of medical debt."

Friday, September 25, 2009

OK..now she says it was rape...

But they were both on drugs, she was in bed with him, and she was participating???
I'm not sure if she even knows who started it that night, sounds like she doesn't.
Doesn't really matter I suppose, except when you are calling it rape. Why didn't she leap out of bed when she came to and found herself having sex with her Dad?
And she still continued with consensual sex..
I'm confused...and still don't want to know about her sex life with her dad.
She got pregnant????? OMG...
I believe that incest victims need to come forward, and get help, and stop whats happening to them anyway they can.
But, this strikes me as a profit making exorcism..
Coming out, telling the story is one thing, that I can respect and support 100%.
But its a book, for sale.
Just my humble opinion.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Catch of the day

Is she that desperate for publicity....

That she would actually reveal this to the world????
How sad and sick.
This should be listed under things we NEVER needed to know.
It was consensual, there was no abuse according to her, so why tell?

'One Day at a Time' star Mackenzie Phillips promised to tell a juicy family secret -- and boy does she deliver a whopper.

The actress writes in her memoir about her incestuous relationship with her father John Phillips, of Mamas and the Papas fame, PEOPLE reports.

"Don't hate my father," she tells PEOPLE.

She describes that in a haze of drugs, she slept with her father on the night before her wedding.
Actress Mackenzie Phillips dropped the father of all bombshells - she admits to a long-term sexual affair with her own dad, Mamas and the Papas singer John Phillips, who died in 2001.

"On the eve of my wedding, my father showed up, determined to stop it. I had tons of pills, and Dad had tons of everything too. Eventually I passed out on Dad's bed," she writes. Phillips was 19 at the time.

"My father was not a man with boundaries. He was full of love, and he was sick with drugs. I woke up that night from a blackout to find myself having sex with my own father," she continues.

"Had this happened before? I didn't know. All I can say is it was the first time I was aware of it. For a moment I was in my body, in that horrible truth, and then I slid back into a blackout," Phillips adds.

Their relationship developed consensually and her father even asked her to run away with him.

"One night Dad said, 'We could just run away to a country where no one would look down on us. There are countries where this is an accepted practice. Maybe Fiji.'"

The troubled star has struggled with drugs her entire life, having most recently been arrested just over a year ago in the Los Angeles Airport during a drug bust.

Mackenzie's sister, Chynna Phillips, also recalls the moment when she found out about the affair.

"She said, 'I don't know why, but I just really felt the need to call you and tell you something that I think you need to know.' And she went on to tell me that she had had an incestuous relationship with our dad for about 10 years," Chynna told Usmagazine.com.

"Somebody could have dropped a piano on my head and I probably wouldn't have felt it. But I knew it was true. I mean, who in their right mind would make such a claim if it wasn't true?" she adds of her reaction.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Now I don't know who the hell Juanes is...but....

This was big news here.

At the end of his internationally televised concert in Havana's Revolution Plaza on Sunday, Sept. 20, Colombian rock superstar Juanes looked out at a crowd of more than 1 million and shouted, "Cuba libre! Cuba libre!" (Free Cuba!) It was a mantra you could take two ways: If you're a fan of Cuba's communist government, it was a cry to keep the island safe from U.S. imperialism. If you're a foe, it was a plea for the political and economic freedoms that Fidel Castro and his brother, current President Raúl Castro, have muzzled for 50 years.

Or, as Juanes probably preferred, you could assign no political message to it whatsoever and just take the star-studded concert for what he intended it to be: a chance to let Latin rhythms drown out the polarized polemics for a few hours and maybe get the U.S. and Cuba to think harder about how to improve their tortured relations.

Yeah, right. Earth to Juanes: this is Cuba we're talking about, the worn out Cold War football of every left-wing apologist and right-wing opportunist in the hemisphere. Politics enters into todo, everything. Any idealistic electric-guitar picker who thinks otherwise is just asking for the kind of grief Juanes experienced in the months leading up to Sunday's Peace Without Borders show, complete with the death threat he received from an anti-Castro militant on Twitter and the insults hurled at Miami's Cuban exiles from the newspaper Granma and other mouthpieces of the Castro regime.

Yet by most accounts, Juanes scored a success. Critics accused him of helping legitimize the Castros; they argued that the brothers wouldn't have let the king of the Latin Grammys take over the same square beneath the massive visage of Che Guevara if they thought he was a threat to their rule. In the short run, at least, the Castros won p.r. points at home and abroad by letting Juanes and other Latin luminaries perform.

But on an island where communism is the de facto state religion, it was a refreshing shock on both sides of the Florida Straits to see the hallowed Revolution Plaza packed not for a 10-hour Fidel speech but for something as joyously secular as a pop concert. As Granma itself noted afterward, there was "no political manipulation of cultural expression ... just a vote for human understanding." And while that's to the Castros' credit, the truth is that the long-term effects of that sort of nondogmatic fiesta don't always favor systems like Cuba's. Says Daniel Erikson, a senior associate at the Inter-American Dialogue in Washington and author of The Cuba Wars: "These kinds of cultural exchanges bring alternative voices that diminish the government's monopoly on information and expression."

Which is why the concert's supporters, including many in the Miami exile community, say it's time for the Obama Administration to revive the U.S.-Cuba cultural exchanges that began in the 1990s but were nixed under former President George W. Bush. "I took part in the Bay of Pigs, and I've been fighting the Castros for 50 years," says Francisco (Pepe) Hernandez, 73, president of the Cuban-American National Foundation in Miami, which backed Juanes' efforts despite protests by more hard-line exiles that included smashing the singer's CDs in Little Havana. "But it was tremendous to see Juanes sing about freedom in that plaza to the new generation of Cubans. We've thought for too long that we could topple the government in Cuba from here in Miami, but we have to approach it more from the bottom up by taking this kind of thing directly to the Cuban people."

President Obama has pledged to thaw U.S.-Cuba affairs as a way to promote democracy on the island. Though he favors keeping intact the 47-year-old trade embargo against Cuba, he eliminated restrictions on travel to Cuba for Cuban-American families, and his Administration is now in talks with Havana about improving immigration and postal service between the two countries. Erikson says the concert by Juanes, who lives in Miami, was a reminder of the "soft power tool kit" the U.S. should wield more often. "Obama needs to bring more of that kind of cultural diplomacy back into the arena," he says, "but so far it's taking a backseat."

Obama, however, seems less than impressed with such arguments. Sunday morning, in an interview with the Spanish-language television network Univisión, he said that while he didn't think events like the Juanes concert hurt U.S.-Cuba relations, "I wouldn't overstate the degree that it helps." If that indifference seems to contradict the spirit of U.S.-Cuba engagement that Obama expressed in his presidential campaign and at the Summit of the Americas earlier this year, it may be because he's found that conservatives can still give him headaches over Cuba and the Latin-American left. Republicans are currently holding up key diplomatic appointments in Congress, for example, to protest Obama's support of leftist Honduran Manuel Zelaya, who was ousted in a military coup over the summer. (That issue may become more complicated with the news Monday that Zelaya smuggled himself back into Honduras.)

Still, in his book, Erikson describes how increased cultural-exchange activity at the end of the 20th century led to more robust public discussion and independent journalism in Cuba by the start of the 21st century — enough so, he writes, that an alarmed Fidel Castro cracked down with sweeping arrests of dissidents and writers in 2003. Despite that setback, exchange advocates feel it's time to start again. The point, they say, is that even if Juanes meant nothing by shouting "Cuba libre!," it was enough if he got some of those 1 million Cubans wondering what he did mean by it.

What can I say?

I hope they put him in with the general population and that those men butt fuck him and beat him until he is nothing but a raw piece of meat...
And then I hope they REALLY hurt him.

Man Wanted in US Murders Held in Haiti
Slain Fla. Mom Endured Abuse for Years
TAMPA, Fla. (Sept. 21) — A Florida woman slain along with her five children endured regular abuse from her husband but seemed overwhelmed by trying to raise the kids herself and wanted him around as a father figure, Department of Children and Families records show.
Police in Haiti on Monday detained Mesac Damas, wanted for questioning in the slayings of his wife, Guerline Damas, and the couple's three boys and two girls in their Naples, Fla., apartment. A relative said detectives told them their throats had been slit.
Tragedy in Florida Collier County Sheriff's Office
A man wanted for questioning in the Florida slayings of his wife and their five young children was detained by police in Haiti on Monday. Mesac Damas boarded a flight to Haiti from Miami International Airport on Friday, police said. Damas, 33, has family from Haiti. Officials said he is a person of interest
Five young children and their mother were found dead in a southern Florida apartment, and authorities were searching Sunday for the woman's husband, who had left the country. Damas, 33, has family from Haiti. Officials said he is a person of interest.

The 33-year-old boarded a flight to Haiti from Miami International Airport on Friday, a day before police found the bodies.
Mesac Damas told The Associated Press at the police station where he was being held in Port-au-Prince that he had planned to surrender and that he returned to his native Caribbean nation "to say goodbye to my family."
"I was going to turn myself in. You see I've got my suit on and everything," Demas said as police led him from a backroom where he was interrogated to a jail cell.
He did not respond when asked if he killed his wife.
Just days before he left the country, a Department of Children and Families caseworker assigned to the family had made an unannounced visit to the apartment and noted in a report that the children, ages 11 months to 9 years, seemed healthy and safe.
Mesac Damas was home and dinner was cooked. The toddler was wearing a sundress and playing with her doll while the older daughter, dressed in pink, asked the caseworker if she had brought her a pink book bag, because she was going to school next year. The boys were in T-shirts and shorts and the worker didn't see any bruises or marks.
Mesac Damas was due to finish a court-ordered battery intervention course in November.
"There is no safety concern," the file reads. "Children are doing fine."
But relatives of Guerline Damas, 32, said her husband was a "loose cannon" who would take away his wife's cell phone and be rude to her family.
"You'd never know what he'd do," said her younger brother, Mackindy Dieu, 23, who lived with the couple several years ago.
Dieu said his sister wasn't open about the details of her personal life and her family didn't know she was being abused until January, when Mesac Damas was arrested and charged with misdemeanor battery after he hit his wife as she held their baby daughter in her arms.
According to DCF records, he choked her and ripped her shirt off.
"As this is occurring, the child slipped out of the mother's hand and fell to the floor," the report states.
It was one of a handful of times that sheriff's deputies had been called about domestic disputes between the couple. But this one was different: Mesac Damas was taken into custody and a restraining order filed.
The other children had been outside playing and were terrified by what had happened, a caseworker noted. In interviews, two of the older boys described seeing their parents fight regularly. The oldest, 9-year-old Michzach, told the caseworker that he would try to take all the children in a bedroom when the abuse happened.
"If he tries to call 911, dad hits him on the hand or in the head," the file noted.
When it was especially bad, Guerline Damas would sleep in her car. She hadn't had an easy life — she immigrated to Florida from Haiti as a teenager after her father was murdered in their home. She went to high school and later found work in a Publix supermarket.
"What are you doing with this guy?" Dieu said the family told her when they learned about the abuse. "You need to leave."
The couple separated — for two months. Guerline Damas began counseling at a shelter for abused women. A caseworker noted she seemed overwhelmed at the thought of raising five children by herself. She started pushing for the restraining order to be lifted.
"She believes that a father should be with his children and she has faith in him, that he will not repeat domestic violence against his wife," records from a visit in late March state.
Mesac Damas pleaded no contest to the battery charge and was given 12 months probation and ordered to take parenting classes and enroll in a battery intervention program. Around April, he moved back in.
The family seemed to make progress. Mesac Damas said he was learning to control his anger and talk with the children more. The children said they had missed their father.
The caseworker described observing a "loving relationship" between the father and children.
"This clinician believes that this family will be a solid family unit once again," the file states.
Associated Press writer Jonathan M. Katz reported from Port-Au-Prince, Haiti.
Copyright 2009 The Associated Press. The information contained in the AP news report may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or otherwise distributed without the prior written authority of The Associated Press.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

If I see one more picture.....

Or hear the names of Jon and Kate Gosselin ONE MORE TIME....I will not be able to do anything about it...lol
But LORD am I tired of hearing about these two dysfunctional parents and their personal dirty laundry.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

This breaks my heart

Think of what Elton and his partner could offer this child..just think.
And no one else will adopt him, and he will languish and die in an orphanage.

Elton John Prohibited From Adopting
Posted Monday 14 September 11:55 AM By: PopEater / Wire Services

The Ukrainian orphan Elton John wants to adopt will not go home with the singer and his longtime partner David Furnish, due to a national law that prohibits unmarried couples from adopting, The AP reports.

The singer toured a hospital for HIV-infected children in Ukraine on Saturday as part of a charity project and said that he and his partner wanted to adopt a 14-month-old, HIV-infected boy named Lev. But the country's Family, Youth and Sports Minister Yuriy Pavlenko said Ukraine does not recognize homosexual unions as marriage.

Pavlenko also said John was too old. The singer is 62 and Ukrainian law requires a parent to be no more than 45 years older than an adopted child.

"Foreign citizens who are single have no right to adopt children ... and the age difference between the adopter and the child cannot be more than 45 years," Pavlenko said. "The law is the same for everybody: for a president, for a minister, for Elton John."

John and Furnish, his longtime partner, tied the knot in 2005 in one of the first legalized civil unions in the United Kingdom.

"I don't know how we do that, but he has stolen my heart. And he has stolen David's heart and it would be wonderful if we can have a home," John said.

Pavlenko said Ukraine was grateful for the singer's charity work and expressed hope that his desire to adopt Lev would spur the domestic adoption of more children with health problems, which is still rare in Ukraine.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Ok....I had a stressful discovery today......

I've been on meds (Toprol XL) for my pressure for a while, but last month the Dr increased the dose and ordered an Echocardiogram. I had one three years ago which was fine.
Ok...well I had an Echo two weeks ago and the results show some thickening of a ventricle, likely caused by untreated high BP...and cardiac output down by 15%
Stress, heredity, and the years of exercise may have helped in the long run, but that doesn't make me feel too good right now.
So now I'm on another med....Diovan..
And of course I had a quasi panic attack..
With panic disorder, you immediately imagine the very worst symptoms that can occur...WILL OCCUR...AND TO YOU...and not just symptoms, but imminent death within five mins of taking the new pill.
But ya'll haven't heard the worst part yet.
And quit smoking of course. Thank God I only have 18 months of smoking behind me...vs years and years...
But still....I had hoped and prayed that years of running and working out would provide me with a healthy heart ...ALWAYS...
Shoulda known better.
I'll keep exercising, its part of my life, been doing it since I was 18....
This sucks the big one, and not in a good way.
Looks like my plans to retire and become a physically healthy and fit barfly in Key West won't be panning out any time soon.

Friday, September 11, 2009

This is too funny

This is from the show Wife Swap, which I do enjoy on occassion...and I definitely want to catch THIS episode when it airs.
He doesn't raise his voice, he's not rude, and he's amazingly composed and articulate...lol lol lol
But no respect for adults, thats for sure. Likely because he's much more intelligent than his age ( and likely more intelligent than his parents..lol )

Thursday, September 10, 2009

What an embarrassment for the Republicans

WASHINGTON (Sept. 10) -- Democrats and Republicans alike are denouncing Rep. Joe Wilson for shouting "You lie" at President Barack Obama during his speech to Congress, an extraordinary breach of decorum for which the South Carolina Republican swiftly apologized.
"There'll be time enough to consider whether or not we ought to make it clear that that action is unacceptable in the House of Representatives," House Majority Leader Steny Hoyer, D-Md., said late Wednesday on WTOP radio when asked about possible punishment for Wilson. "I've talked to Republican members who share that view."
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"Let's see what he does," Hoyer said before Wilson issued an apology. "Then there's time enough to consider further action."
House Republicans did not immediately respond to a request for comment, but there was widespread condemnation of the outburst from members of both parties.
Wilson's outburst came after Obama said extending health care to all Americans who seek it would not mean insuring illegal immigrants.
"You lie!" Wilson shouted from his seat on the Republican side of the chamber.
Wilson's behavior caused a political hangover for him and possibly for the Republican critics Obama had cast as shrill and more interested in killing any health care overhaul than finding a way to provide it.
Later, Wilson was contrite.

"This evening I let my emotions get the best of me," he said in a statement. "While I disagree with the president's statement, my comments were inappropriate and regrettable. I extend sincere apologies to the president for this lack of civility."
He then tried to call Obama to apologize personally, but ended up talking with White House Chief of Staff Rahm Emanuel instead, Wilson's office said.
By that time, the congressman's Web site had crashed, he had taken a beating on his Twitter page and Democrat Rob Miller had raised thousands of unexpected dollars online for a possible rematch with Wilson in next year's midterm elections, according to Lachlan McIntosh, Miller's campaign manager.
"Everybody was stunned," Rep. Maxine Waters, D-Calif., said of Wilson's eruption. "It was just something that nobody had ever witnessed before. We all felt embarrassed."
Republicans froze; several glanced in Wilson's direction.
House Speaker Nancy Pelosi directed a fierce frown at him; first lady Michelle Obama pursed her lips and shook her head from side to side. Vice President Joe Biden looked down and shook his head too.
Obama, meanwhile, looked toward the outburst and replied, "That's not true" before going on with his speech.
Wilson appeared to consult his Blackberry for much of the rest of Obama's speech. He shook his head defiantly after several of the president's statements. When Obama finished, Wilson bolted from the chamber.
Wilson's behavior was "totally disrespectful," Sen. John McCain, R-Ariz., who had been Obama's rival in the 2008 presidential election, said on CNN. "There is no place for it in that setting, or any other, and he should apologize for it immediately."
Associated Press writers Ben Evans in Washington and Jim Davenport in Columbia, S.C., contributed to this report.
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2009-09-10 03:17:32

This brought me to tears....

As a healthcare provider, it pains and saddens me that so many do NOT seem to understand the need for healthcare reform.
I see it, live it first hand. Our present system is bloated, wrong and evil..
And I see daily the victims of it. Those without insurance, those whose illnesses cause them to run out of "days" as its called, days in the hospital is what that means.
Reform is needed, necessary and long overdue.
And I pray Obama makes it happen. I find it very ironic, that the very people who are in government fighting against nationalized health coverage because government shouldn't be controlling healthcare, well those very senators and congressmen are covered by a government controlled and sponsored health plan.
Which they will get to keep for life.
Irony, thy name is partisanship.

Sept. 9) - Text of a letter Sen. Ted Kennedy, D-Mass., wrote before his death to send President Barack Obama, as provided by the White House.

May 12, 2009
Dear Mr. President,
I wanted to write a few final words to you to express my gratitude for your repeated personal kindnesses to me — and one last time, to salute your leadership in giving our country back its future and its truth.
On a personal level, you and Michelle reached out to Vicki, to our family and me in so many different ways. You helped to make these difficult months a happy time in my life.
You also made it a time of hope for me and for our country.
When I thought of all the years, all the battles, and all the memories of my long public life, I felt confident in these closing days that while I will not be there when it happens, you will be the president who at long last signs into law the health care reform that is the great unfinished business of our society. For me, this cause stretched across decades; it has been disappointed, but never finally defeated. It was the cause of my life. And in the past year, the prospect of victory sustained me — and the work of achieving it summoned my energy and determination.
There will be struggles — there always have been — and they are already under way again. But as we moved forward in these months, I learned that you will not yield to calls to retreat — that you will stay with the cause until it is won. I saw your conviction that the time is now and witnessed your unwavering commitment and understanding that health care is a decisive issue for our future prosperity. But you have also reminded all of us that it concerns more than material things; that what we face is above all a moral issue; that at stake are not just the details of policy, but fundamental principles of social justice and the character of our country.
And so because of your vision and resolve, I came to believe that soon, very soon, affordable health coverage will be available to all, in an America where the state of a family's health will never again depend on the amount of a family's wealth. And while I will not see the victory, I was able to look forward and know that we will — yes, we will — fulfill the promise of health care in America as a right and not a privilege.
In closing, let me say again how proud I was to be part of your campaign — and proud as well to play a part in the early months of a new era of high purpose and achievement. I entered public life with a young president who inspired a generation and the world. It gives me great hope that as I leave, another young president inspires another generation and once more on America's behalf inspires the entire world.
So, I wrote this to thank you one last time as a friend — and to stand with you one last time for change and the America we can become.
At the Denver Convention where you were nominated, I said the dream lives on.
And I finished this letter with unshakable faith that the dream will be fulfilled for this generation, and preserved and enlarged for generations to come.
With deep respect and abiding affection,

All alone here

Dh had to fly back home to take care of some business....he'll only be gone till tomorrow, but it felt so odd coming home to an empty house.
For the last month, I've come home to him being here.
And...HARUMPH...the cats ignored me for several hours.
I guess since their Daddy wasn't here I wasn't worth notice..lol
I will say Eddy slept on the bed with me...but thats only because Lil One wasn't home last night.
She spent the night at her friends.
And then I got up this morning and OH MY GAWD THE HORROR...THE HUMANITY....I had to feed the dogs and make my OWN COFFEE!!!!!!!
I miss my man.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Chris Brown is a dumbass loser/abuser.....

Chris Brown's Smackdown With Oprah


Days after Chris Brown appeared on 'Larry King Live' to address his felony assault of singer Rihanna, he's speaking out against Oprah Winfrey's domestic violence episode. In a new issue of PEOPLE, Brown says the show, which Winfrey "dedicated to all the Rihanna's of the world," was a "slap in the face," though the singer admits he's ready for therapy. But was speaking out against Oprah a bad career move? Some insiders think the comments will ruin him.

One source, who has direct connections to Brown's endorsement opportunities said, "He's done."

"Whatever goodwill he had, he's totally ruined it by saying that. What was he thinking? And who the hell goes up against Oprah? It just shows he doesn't think. No one is going to want him as the face of their brand," the source added.

Brown argues that he, "did a lot of stuff for her, like going to Africa and performing for her school. She could have been more helpful, like, 'OK, I'm going to help both of these people out,'" he added.

For now, Oprah's only comment comes from her rep."Oprah is very appreciative that Chris Brown performed at her school, but she takes domestic abuse very seriously. She hopes he gets the counseling he needs."

According to Brown, that's exactly his plan. "I want to understand my feelings," Brown tells PEOPLE. "I want to find out what really transpired as far as me that night. Sometimes when you're young you don't know how to express [your emotions], so I think it actually would be helpful to talk to a counselor or to somebody who has an expertise in what those [feelings] are."

The singer adds, "I wanted to take the counseling upon myself and ... just talk to someone. I just need to talk to someone. I wanted to understand the problem at hand."

Brown still doesn't believe he has a problem controlling his anger, but he accepts he might be proven wrong in therapy. "If I do, I will work with my counselor and hopefully channel my anger into something like dancing," he says. "I don't think I would get that mad again. I want to be a man, so I have to be more responsible .... I'd rather walk away."

The Brown-Rihanna Case
Chris Brown has been sentenced to five years of probation and six months of community labor for his felony assault on then-girlfriend Rihanna in February.

In his first communication with the public about the attack this summer, Brown told his fans how sorry he is about the beating incident. "I am very sad and very ashamed of what I have done... I've told Rihanna countless times and I am telling you all today that I am truly, truly sorry that I wasn't able to handle the situation both differently and better. " he said.

Back in April, Brown pleaded not guilty to both assault and criminal threat charges in court.

Brown's manager, Tina Davis, was named by TMZ as the woman behind the text message that sparked his alleged beating of Rihanna. She has since denied the claims, saying: "The rumors in circulation are false. There are no emails between Ms. Davis and Mr. Brown of the type which have been described in media reports."

Court documents revealed that the police report claims Brown allegedly assaulted Rihanna in his car after she discovered a text message on his phone. According to the report, Brown smashed her head against the window, and then punched and bit her.

TMZ obtained a photo that appears to be singer Rihanna, taken shortly after Brown allegedly beat her following a pre-Grammy party. Police have said the woman had visible injuries, and that Brown was gone from the scene when they arrived

Brown can be seen leaving the police station after being booked. According to police reports, he assaulted Rihanna in the car, and told her "I'm going to beat the s--- out of you when we get home." He also allegedly threatened to kill her after she told her assistant to call the police.

In their cover story, PEOPLE spoke with the father of Rihanna, who says he hopes his daughter is done with boyfriend Brown after his alleged assault. Shortly after, reports that Rihanna and Brown were back together in Miami emerged.PEOPLE

Brown, seen a day before the alleged attack, released a statement on Feb. 15, which read in part, "Words cannot begin to express how sorry and saddened I am over what transpired."

This is very disturbing, so....

Don't view it if you are easily upset by animal abuse..
BUT..I watched it this morning, and was so sickened, I am determined not to use products from this company...EVER...
I'm not now, nor likely ever will be, Vegan.
But if I am going to continue eating meat, I would at least like to know for sure, that the animals are humanely treated, and not culled like useless garbage.
Yes, I fish. And I'd eat what I caught if I knew that it was safe to do so.
Catch and release...I suppose its still considered by some to be cruel.....I don't know.
But I sure as hell don't compare hooking a fish to deliberately doing what these folks do daily.

Friday, September 04, 2009

She's a kitty 'ho

Ever since he arrived...Bella has been his 'ho
Follows him around and climbs in his lap..constantly..
Nothing she's ever done with me..
Its too sweet and funny

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Fishes and the lake

Now I didn't catch these two fish, they are pics I got off the web.
But I have both in my lake, and I caught one of each a few days ago.
Top pic is of a Peacock Bass, bottom is the Oscar.
The oscars aren't native, they were deliberately introduced by Aquarium farmers in Dade county during the 50's.
Now peacock bass were deliberately released as game fish and to control other fish populations.
They work out quite well here

This is from southfloridapeacockbass.com

The South Florida Butterfly peacock bass has become an extremely popular freshwater game fish. The peacock bass was introduced to the waters of south Florida back in 1984 by the fish and wildlife commission in order to aid in controlling the ever-growing number of exotic species of fish that were let go into our canals by their owners once they became too big for their tanks. The commission released 20,000 butterfly peacock fingerlings that were stocked into the major canal systems of southeast Florida. The initial stocking took place between 1984 and 1987, procured again by the FWC. Peacock bass are natural predators of the illegally introduced and abundant exotic fishes such as the African spotted tilapia and numerous other species of cichlids that had overrun sections of the canals in the metropolitan Miami-Ft. Lauderdale area

Tropical storm Erika

Somewhat weaker today, but still packing 50MPH winds.
We are monitoring this one very closely here, because its the first system that looks like it may have the potential to affect us here in SoFla.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

His and hers computer stations...LOL

We set his up opposite to mine...what would be ridiculous is if we were to sit here and IM each other...lol
He's hiding his handsome mug here

Outrageous pricing

Lil one wants to buy a textbook for her class because of course they aren't allowed to write in the books they were given ( of course )
I looked it up and was simply horrified by the cost, including used..they are anywhere from 70-100$ plus.
OUTRAGEOUS...why on earth should a paperback spiral bound book cost so much?
I realize its a college text because she is taking an AP level...but really!!!!!

Settling in nicely

He works around here like a dog...and the patio looks fantastic!!!!
Lil one appears to like him, and things are going well.
I love having him here with me full time, and having a partner to do things with. He even came to the gym with me, he sat and read while I worked out.
We seem to naturally divide chores up, he cooks, I clean dishes and vice versa.
So different from before.
I'm happy dear blog faithful, happy for the first time in forever.