Saturday, January 31, 2009

This is weird

This is NOT normal IMHO...
Has six kids and went and got in vitro again?
Why on earth the Dr.s went along with it is a puzzle to me.
I bet she ends up on public assistance, or out begging for financial help for the 14 yes 14 CHILDREN she now has, all under the age of 7 with 8 of them newborns.
This...sorry , this is sick.
And whoever it was that kept implanting embryos in an unmarried young woman, with the third, fourth fifth etc....
Unethical IMHO.

Grandma: Octuplets mom obsessed with having kids By RAQUEL MARIA DILLON, AP
posted: 2 HOURS 57 MINUTES AGOcomments:
LOS ANGELES -The woman who gave birth to octuplets this week conceived all 14 of her children through in vitro fertilization, is not married and has been obsessed with having children since she was a teenager, her mother said.
Angela Suleman told The Associated Press she was not supportive when her daughter, Nadya Suleman, decided to have more embryos implanted last year.
"It can't go on any longer," she said in a phone interview Friday. "She's got six children and no husband. I was brought up the traditional way. I firmly believe in marriage. But she didn't want to get married."
Nadya Suleman, 33, gave birth Monday in nearby Bellflower. She was expected to remain in the hospital for at least a few more days, and her newborns for at least a month.
A spokeswoman at Kaiser Permanente Bellflower Medical Center said the babies were doing well and seven were breathing unassisted.
While her daughter recovers, Angela Suleman is taking care of the other six children, ages 2 through 7, at the family home in Whittier, about 15 miles east of downtown Los Angeles.
She said she warned her daughter that when she gets home from the hospital, "I'm going to be gone."
Angela Suleman said her daughter always had trouble conceiving and underwent in vitro fertilization treatments because her fallopian tubes are "plugged up."
There were frozen embryos left over after her previous pregnancies and her daughter didn't want them destroyed, so she decided to have more children.
Her mother and doctors have said the woman was told she had the option to abort some of the embryos and, later, the fetuses. She refused.
Her mother said she does not believe her daughter will have any more children.
"She doesn't have any more (frozen embryos), so it's over now," she said. "It has to be."
Nadya Suleman wanted to have children since she was a teenager, "but luckily she couldn't," her mother said.
"Instead of becoming a kindergarten teacher or something, she started having them, but not the normal way," he mother said.
Her daughter's obsession with children caused Angela Suleman considerable stress, so she sought help from a psychologist, who told her to order her daughter out of the house.
"Maybe she wouldn't have had so many kids then, but she is a grown woman," Angela Suleman said. "I feel responsible and I didn't want to throw her out."
Yolanda Garcia, 49, of Whittier, said she helped care for Nadya Suleman's autistic son three years ago.
"From what I could tell back then, she was pretty happy with herself, saying she liked having kids and she wanted 12 kids in all," Garcia told the Long Beach Press-Telegram.
"She told me that all of her kids were through in vitro, and I said 'Gosh, how can you afford that and go to school at the same time?"' she added. "And she said it's because she got paid for it."
Garcia said she did not ask for details.
Nadya Suleman holds a 2006 degree in child and adolescent development from California State University, Fullerton, and as late as last spring she was studying for a master's degree in counseling, college spokeswoman Paula Selleck told the Press-Telegram.
Her fertility doctor has not been identified. Her mother told the Los Angeles Times all the children came from the same sperm donor but she declined to identify him.
Birth certificates reviewed by The Associated Press identify a David Solomon as the father for the four oldest children. Certificates for the other children were not immediately available.
The news that the octuplets' mother already had six children sparked an ethical debate. Some medical experts were disturbed to hear that she was offered fertility treatment, and troubled by the possibility that she was implanted with so many embryos.
Others worried that she would be overwhelmed trying to raise so many children and would end up relying on public support.
The eight babies — six boys and two girls — were delivered by Cesarean section weighing between 1 pound, 8 ounces and 3 pounds, 4 ounces. Forty-six physicians and staff assisted in the deliveries.
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2009-01-31 10:37:51

Job interview

I was looking for a second job to help my finances..and somehow applied for a full time job that sounds VERY promising.
It will be all about the money and the benes tho...I can't leave my job for another unless its a substantial raise
Prayers and positive vibes appreciated Blog Faithful

Thursday, January 29, 2009

I love this song..tho it makes me sad

All time low..Remembering Sunday

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place seems familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be

[Juliet Simms:]
I'm not coming back (forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak (I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just (You're driving me crazy, I'm)
Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head

[Alex Gaskarth:]
Well I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home

Sunday, January 25, 2009


I booked another flight to Salt Lake folks....I couldn't resist the fare...200 roundtrip!!!!!
April 2nd folks...I'll be with my man again

Friday, January 23, 2009

Changed my song lineup

To lead off with Rascal Flatts "Everyday"
For you Baby.....I love you

Back from Utah

Monday, January 12, 2009

Blog Faithful

I worked the last two days and got my ass royally kicked...and its ok...because as of now I'm on vacation...
Tomorrow I take care of Moms food shopping, get a wax ( full Brazilian baby as usual!!!) and pack...
I fly to Utah on Wednesday....
Positive thoughts, vibes and prayers are welcome....
I can't believe its finally going to happen...
Two plus years...and we are finally going to meet...
There are miracles

Friday, January 02, 2009

Let you down

Once again, my beloved family has let me down.
I obviously have no needs. I can burn all my vacation time caring for my mother, but thats ok
I'm not married, ergo have no life.
I have no needs, so I can suffer financially during my family leave ( to care for my mother who told me I can't pay you while you're out, I won't wonder where my last dollar is coming from )
Yet she can "loan" 24 thousand dollars to my emminently well off sister, who DOES NOT NEED THE she can buy a second house.
Because she chose to move to fucking Boise fucking Idaho without securing a buyer for her house here.
But God forbid she not have a house to buy, gotta have that tax deduction.
So here I am.
The one who always cares for the parents, the one whose needs don't matter, the one who is so stressed out, that she regularly has palpitations, nightmares and is struggling to make ends meet.
So me.....I won't let you down...
Believe me blog faithful, that is not MY CREED.
I don't let those I love down.
I don't leave those I love to do my dirty work
I don't abandon those I love.
I don't...I just don't

Unexpected Flower

Unexpected Flower

I am that unexpected flower
that blooms in the desert, for such a brief time
when dryness, heat and sand rule the terrain
I am that unexpected color
that graces the landscape for such a short time
and sparkles with light, in all the waste
I am that wonder that visits yearly
and bows and dances with the winds
that blow across the arid barren waste
I am gone with barely a moments notice
lacking the moisture and nuture
that brought me forth in the nothingness
I am the unexpected flower
that has the potential, all of the year
to bring beauty and color to a lackluster world
I am as nothing
I am as a zephyr
I am nothing
I am the unexpected flower
that the desert yearns for in its sandy sadness
and i bloom
and die
I am that unexpected flower

Thursday, January 01, 2009


Is gorgeous, 72 partly sunny and breezy, just gorgeous.
I walked four miles..and feel pretty damn good.

My new Mr Coffee

From my sister for christmas.
Just what I wanted, and it happens to also be the one that my Divorce mediator had in her office...good karma if you ask me.