Monday, November 30, 2009

I Must Apologize

I had too much to drink, took it out here on DH.
I removed the posts, and reading them over made my decision for me.
Today I stop drinking for a while, and diet and get back to exercise.
I've been overly stressed with no outlet and enough is enough.
Time to reassess and repair.
Wish me luck blog faithful.
PS, a hangover makes the choice easy lol.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Ahhh the holidays

I used to love the holidays....
The cooling of the weather, the idea of Santa and his sleigh.
And then I got married.
Holidays became something to anticipate and dread all in one breath.
Ex hated the holidays...HATED THEM....don't ask me why, I have no effin clue.
But Thanksgiving? He got drunk. Christmas? He got drunk.
He bought nothing, and towards the end wouldn't even participate in the decoration of the tree.
He used to put the lights on with Lil one, it was their thing. But he wouldn't even do that.
Why do I drink you ask?
It was the only way to survive.
I remember more than once stopping him from urinating on the fireplace in our bedroom in the middle of the night.
I remember lil one waking me up and saying whats wrong with daddy...he was in the bathroom urinating in the garbage can by bouncing his stream off the bathroom door.
She came and woke me up one night and said " I think Daddy is sleep walking" I went along with that thought, because he got up from his recliner where he had passed out, and he had walked over to the computer and urinated on the keyboard.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Neo counter

I simply adore looking at who has visited my blog.
But boy...I would it if people would comment..and say hi. an overdose today in the ED

And it never fails to amaze me...
Personally, if I was to try and off myself..I'd be way more careful than most of these fools.
But we get them all the time....the drug OD'S...and its sad.
Perhaps my background in medicine makes me more amenable to the reality of suicide...and what would work best.
My personal choice....if anyone really asked me...would be drowning.
Haul my ass down to the beach late at night, swim out as far as I could and just dip down and take a huge lung full...
It wouldn't take long afterward for it all to be over.
These jackasses with the drugs....theres too much chance of warped survival IMHO...
But thats just me.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

And isn't it wonderful that......

Free Clipart

I'm actually looking forward to the holidays this year...

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Good Lord!!!

I'm sorry, but this is news worthy?????
I'm sorry, but this is worth pursuing and finding these kids and holding them accountable???
This is just plain STUPID...

Weird Car News

Utah teen to challenge citation for McDonald's rap
Nick Ut, APSALT LAKE CITY -- (AP) The case of one of four teens who were cited after rapping their order at a McDonald's in Utah appears headed for trial. Police in American Fork, about 30 miles south of Salt Lake City, cited the teens with disorderly conduct last month after the drive-through rap.

The teens have said they were imitating a rap from a popular YouTube video, which begins: "I need a double cheeseburger and hold the lettuce." Spenser Dauwalder, 18, has said employees at the fast-food restaurant told him and his friends they were holding up the line and needed to order or leave. But Dauwalder said no one else was in line. He and his three 17-year-old friends left without buying anything.

A manager wrote down the car's license plate number and called authorities, police Sgt. Gregg Ludlow has said. Officers later cited the teens in a high school parking lot outside a volleyball match.

What else will be abandoned??? In light of the prior post, this is so sad.

Humbug! Santa Letter Program Killed
ANCHORAGE, Alaska (Nov. 19) — Starry-eyed children writing letters to the jolly man at the North Pole this holiday season likely won't get a response from Santa Claus or his helpers.
The U.S. Postal Service is dropping a popular national program begun in 1954 in the small Alaska town of North Pole, where volunteers open and respond to thousands of letters addressed to Santa each year. Replies come with North Pole postmarks.

Patrick Farmer displays letters that children have sent to Santa Claus in North Pole, Alaska, this year. The Postal Service has scrapped a program in which volunteers answer the letters, citing concerns about the children's privacy and safety.

Last year, a postal worker in Maryland recognized an Operation Santa volunteer there as a registered sex offender. The postal worker interceded before the individual could answer a child's letter, but the Postal Service viewed the episode as a big enough scare to tighten rules in such programs nationwide.
People in North Pole are incensed by the change, likening the Postal Service to the Grinch trying to steal Christmas. The letter program is a revered holiday tradition in North Pole, where light posts are curved and striped like candy canes and streets have names such as Kris Kringle Drive and Santa Claus Lane. Volunteers in the letter program even sign the response letters as Santa's elves and helpers.
North Pole Mayor Doug Isaacson agreed caution is necessary to protect children. But he's outraged North Pole's program should be affected by a sex offender's actions on the East Coast — and he thinks it's wrong that locals just learned of the change.
"It's Grinchlike that the Postal Service never informed all the little elves before the fact," he said. "They've been working on this for how long?"
The Postal Service began restricting its policies in such programs in 2006, including requiring volunteers to show identification.
But the Maryland incident involving the sex offender prompted more changes, even forcing the agency to briefly suspend the Operation Santa program last year in New York and Chicago before reinstating it with the same restrictions implemented nationwide this year.
The agency now prohibits volunteers from having access to children's family names and addresses, said spokeswoman Sue Brennan. The Postal Service instead redacts the last name and addresses on each letter and replaces the addresses with codes that match computerized addresses known only to the post office — and leaves it up to local managers if they want to go through the time-consuming effort to shield the information. Brennan said no one is barred from continuing their programs, but they have to comply with the rules.
Anchorage-based agency spokeswoman Pamela Moody said dealing with the tighter restrictions is not feasible in Alaska.
"It's always been a good program, but we're in different times and concerned for the privacy of the information," she said.
Moody stressed that kids can still send letters to Santa Claus. The Postal Service still runs the giant Operation Santa Program in which children can have their letters to Santa answered, and the restrictions do not affect privately run letter efforts.
What will change are the generically addressed letters to "Santa Claus, North Pole" that for years have been forwarded to the Alaska town, although Brennan said only a fraction of the letters with no specific address wind up in the Alaska town anyway. That program will stop, unless changes are made before Christmas.
Losing the Santa-letter cache is a blow to the community of 2,100 people, who pride themselves on their Christmas ties. Huge tourist attractions here include an everything-Christmas store, Santa Claus House, and the post office, where visitors can get a hand-stamped postmark on their postcards and packages.
Another issue raising the hackles on some locals is another recent change. Anchorage — 260 miles to the south — is processing the thousands of out-of-state requests for North Pole postal cancellation marks on Christmas cards and packages; Fairbanks, just 15 miles away, had long done so.
Moody said with as many as 800,000 items processed last year, Fairbanks is not equipped to handle the overload. Anchorage is the only city in Alaska with the high-speed equipment necessary to do the job without delay. Moody disagreed with the mayor's belief that the process creates a false postmark. Brennan said the move is a matter of resources and finances for the agency, which lost billions of dollars in the last fiscal year and has closed facilities and consolidated districts nationwide.
Santa Claus House, built like a Swiss chalet and chock full of all items Christmas, sells more than 100,000 letters from Santa and one of the lures is the postmark.
Operations manager Paul Brown believes his business will be affected under changes to the volunteer Santa letter program because tens of thousands of letters are addressed to Santa Claus House, North Pole, Alaska.
Those letters will still be forwarded to volunteers but it's unclear yet if anything will be done with them. Those intercepted by the postal service will probably eventually be shredded.
Brown worries about misinterpretations of the changes, such as people believing it's no longer possible to get individual pieces of mail graced with the North Pole postmark.
Copyright 2009 The Associated Press.

This woman is DA BOMB... A real heroine

Undercover Wife Busts Husband by Posing as a Chatroom Teen
by Warren Riddle — Nov 15th 2009 at 2:00PM

With its 'To Catch a Predator' sting operations, NBC's 'Dateline' has spawned a Web meme of motivational posters and jokes deriding repulsive sexual deviants. Those undercover sting operations have also inspired a wave of Net vigilantes who personally attempt to ensnare those unwitting, perverted dimwits.

A 69-year-old man in Wales was recently duped by an undercover crusader, and the operative just so happened to be in the next room. Instead of exchanging chat-room messages with what he thought was a 14-year-old girl, David Anthony Roberts was actually propositioning his own wife.

Cheryl Roberts, David's wife of 20 years, had recently grown suspicious of her husband's extensive online activities, particularly those he carried out under the message board alias of "Corky." With that in mind, she created profiles of 14- and 15-year-old girls on the site Bearshare and began engaging in clandestine discussions with her husband. The conversations apparently turned sexual in nature and finally culminated with David propositioning the 14-year-old character.

WalesOnline reports that Cheryl, who has since divorced her husband, called police after the incident. They made an arrest and subsequently found child pornography on the man's computer. David -- who, officials believe, may suffer from a neurological disorder -- plead guilty to eight charges of child pornography and is now a registered sexual offender. He is also being required to attend a sex offender program and is not allowed to contact anyone under the age of 18 on the Web. Chris Hansen would be proud. [From: Wales Online]

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Got my H1N1 vaccine..

No problems, not even a sore shoulder two days later.
After the routine seasonal shot my shoulder was sore for days.
This one? No problem.

Monday, November 02, 2009

GO YANKS!!!!!!!!!!!

At last the World Series, baseball's crown jewel event, is upon us, and the matchup is awfully hard to beat, even if it tilts toward those with an East Coast bias.

The Turnpike Tussle between the Phillies and the Yankees could be one of the best World Series in recent memory, and we could use one. The Fall Classic hasn't gone the distance since 2002, and it hasn't even gone beyond five games since 2003. Philly and New York both have left-handed aces, outstanding defenses and deep and punishing lineups, hinting that this time around the World Series could go long.

Isn't that what we all want -- Phils and Yanks fans excluded? After the jump, get all the latest news and information on the Series in addition to our staff's predictions.

Cute and cuddly boys.....cute and cuddly!!!!

This is my favorite show right now, I LOVE IT!!!!!!

Time change always messes me up

So I woke up at about 3am, roughly, and couldn't go back to sleep.
I started thinking about the past

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Now worried about DH on top of......

the fact that I have to make a decision regarding the H1N1 is offering it this week..
We only have 90 doses, plus ten ordered just for the pregnant employees.
Somehow I don't think I'll have to worry about it running out. People are nervous as hell about getting it...memories of the Swine flu debacle from years ago.
I'm getting it
I want Lil One to get it and and DH too....he has asthma...
Hey, maybe if he was a prison inmate, he'd have it already!!!!

Awful news guys

Heard from Big Sis, Mom fell and broke her hip.
Shes 87 guys, and thats usually the kiss of death when you break your hip.
She had surgery to repair it, and is going to have to go for rehab to get moving again.
Her dementia has worsened, Sis said she didn't know who was president, nor what year it was.
Otherwise she has been ok...Sis says she stays in her room most of the time tho...
Broken hip...SHIT!!!!
Prayers would be wonderful bloggy faithful.

Thursday, October 29, 2009


I caught a Tilapia this morning

Prisoners getting H1N1 vaccine before the vulnerable non criminal element????

I'm sorry, but this is outrageous!!!! A criminal gets the vaccine before my kid? Before my pregnant coworker? Before ME??? I'm the one exposed to the damned virus every day that I work!!!!!The vulnerable people who are not behind bars should get the vaccine first! The people in prison are generally there because they did something WRONG....There are consequences aren't there? Like waiting for the damned flu vax behind the folks who need it who have done NOTHING wrong.
JMHO....and I stick by it.

(Oct. 28) -- While children, pregnant women and people with compromised immune systems wait in hours-long lines for H1N1 vaccines, some of their counterparts behind bars have no such hassle.

Prisoners who fall into high-risk categories for swine flu will get the shots even while some members of the general public who are not high risk must wait until more of the precious doses are available.

And that has some people hopping mad.

"If you want to get people angry, tell them someone in prison for a very violent felony is going to get it before their grandmother in a nursing home," said Massachusetts state Sen. Mark Montigny, D-New Bedford, vice chairman of the Public Health Committee.

The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention issued guidelines to states listing categories of people who are highest priority for receiving vaccinations against the virulent influenza strain known as swine flu. Christopher Cox, spokesman for the CDC, said the high priority guidance applies to higher-risk people whether they are in a prison, a homeless shelter, a school or a nursing home.

"What we're looking at is vulnerability to getting sick and dying of H1N1. That's what we're trying to prevent," he said.

That has raised eyebrows in states like Massachusetts and Texas, because criminals with health issues may end up getting the shot before the general public.

"Hopefully once the supplies start rolling in in greater numbers, they will be able to expand that to the general public," Cox said.

But Montigny is angry that the vaccine isn't already available to the general public as the peak of the flu season bears down. He said he's not opposed to vulnerable prisoners getting the shot, but if pharmaceutical companies had done a better job, states wouldn't have to choose between the high-risk criminals and the general public for the first doses.

The vaccine supply has been unable to meet demand because of production problems. Cox said 252 million doses will be available this flu season. But only 23.2 million are available so far.

In Texas, for instance, prison officials requested 157,000 doses to cover all inmates, including the 45,000 who are at the front of the line because they fall in that high-priority group of pregnant women, children and those with underlying health issues. They also asked for doses to cover 41,000 staff and medical workers.

Getting juveniles, pregnant inmates and those with compromised immune systems covered first is important because prisons house many people in close proximity, said Jason Clark, spokesman for the Texas Department of Criminal Justice. "So something like this can spread quickly," he said.

But Montigny said prisons aren't the only breeding ground. Day care centers, schools, colleges and nursing homes also feature populations in close proximity. And while prisoners can get the first round of shots, their jailers cannot. The CDC's priority list includes medical workers who work in prisons, but not the rest of the correctional facility staff.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

You've heard of Jack the Giant Killer

I have DH the Bufo killer!!!
They are highly toxic and dangerous to my boys....and he has killed 14 since he arrived....

From Wikepedia

The cane toad (Bufo marinus), also known as the Giant Neotropical Toad or Marine Toad, is a large, terrestrial true toad native to Central and South America. It is a member of the subgenus Chaunus of the genus Bufo, which includes many different true toad species found throughout Central and South America. The cane toad is a prolific breeder; females lay single-clump spawns with thousands of eggs. Its reproductive success is partly because of opportunistic feeding: it has a diet, unusual among Anurans, of both dead and living matter. Adults average 10–15 cm (4–6 in) in length; the largest recorded specimen weighed 2.65 kilograms (5.8 lb) with a length of 38 cm (15 in) from snout to vent.

The cane toad has poison glands, and the tadpoles are highly toxic to most animals if ingested. Because of its voracious appetite, the cane toad has been introduced to many regions of the Pacific and the Caribbean islands as a method of agricultural pest control. The species derives its common name from its use against the greyback cane beetle. The cane toad is now considered a pest and an invasive species in many of its introduced regions; of particular concern is that its toxic skin kills many animals—native predators and otherwise—when ingested.

Punch biopsy

Yesterday of a small cyst in the underarm area...
I got a few sutures, they will be removed in 10 days.
It never ends folks.

Friday, October 23, 2009

New links for the Holidays

Look to the right...Norad site for tracking Santa....Email Santa
Check it out folks!

R.I.P dear Soupy...

Another childhood icon is gone..
Between Soupy, Captain Kangaroo, Officer Joe Bolton, Cap'n Jack McCarthy, Sonny Becker, Paul Tripp, my childhood memories are filled with the Black and White images of kid tv from the 60's in metro NY.
It was channel 2,4,5,7,9,11,13. THAT WAS were all the channels we had, unless we got adventurous and messed with the UHF tuner. That allowed us to pick up a few shows from Joisy...lmao.
Rest in peace dear Soupy. (Remember White Fang and Black Tooth?)

Monday, October 19, 2009

Cold front, yard work and pizza

The cold front that came thru here was wonderful.
Cool today, 70, with blue skys and no clouds.
We had the windows open in the house last night, first time since April.
dh was busy, got the hedges trimmed and palms. Bulk pickup was today, so my old futon went the way of the wind..and its gone.
The dogs had kind of ruined it....boy slept on it so often that it just smelled like DOG...
We have a new yard service. The fellows who did the yard really did a crappy job, so DH says he and I will do it, which was fine.
But we sat on the patio, and our neighbors yard service came thru, and they do a great job, so bingo, we hired them.
Got the sprinklers primed and running, but a head is broken, and I think we will need to dig to repair it.
dh cleaned the patio again, the garage is rapidly emptying out, and he got the spare bedroom so nice, we now call it Lil Ones study.
Eventually we will get a couch that converts, or another futon so that we have a spare bedroom for any guests that come to stay.
Lil one rearranged her room, and dh mounted a mirror on her wall.
For the first time, a person is sitting at the desk ex made, and using it as a desk.
Had the house power washed on thursday, another big job I had pending that we couldn't afford until dh's checks started coming in.
Oh...yeah...the pizza
We had pizza for lunch.

This guy is sick

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Toilet paper anyone?????? this is what I call a roll of paper...
I was just skeered I'd drop it on the floor...imagine how far it would go while rolling away from me?

Monday, October 12, 2009

God Bless the Marines, they need it with this happening

Guns Failed US Troops in Afghan Battle
WASHINGTON (Oct. 12) - In the chaos of an early morning assault on a remote U.S. outpost in eastern Afghanistan, Staff Sgt. Erich Phillips' M4 carbine quit firing as militant forces surrounded the base. The machine gun he grabbed after tossing the rifle aside didn't work either.
When the battle in the small village of Wanat ended, nine U.S. soldiers lay dead and 27 more were wounded. A detailed study of the attack by a military historian found that weapons failed repeatedly at a "critical moment" during the firefight on July 13, 2008, putting the outnumbered American troops at risk of being overrun by nearly 200 insurgents.

Politics Daily: McCain Warns of 'Historic' Error in Afghanistan
Which raises the question: Eight years into the war against the Taliban in Afghanistan, do U.S. armed forces have the best guns money can buy?
Despite the military's insistence that they do, a small but vocal number of troops in Afghanistan and Iraq has complained that the standard-issue M4 rifles need too much maintenance and jam at the worst possible times.
A week ago, eight U.S. troops were killed at a base near Kamdesh, a town near Wanat. There's no immediate evidence of weapons failures at Kamdesh, but the circumstances were eerily similar to the Wanat battle: insurgents stormed an isolated stronghold manned by American forces stretched thin by the demands of war.
Army Col. Wayne Shanks, a military spokesman in Afghanistan, said a review of the battle at Kamdesh is under way. "It is too early to make any assumptions regarding what did or didn't work correctly," he said.
Complaints about the weapons the troops carry, especially the M4, aren't new. Army officials say that when properly cleaned and maintained, the M4 is a quality weapon that can pump out more than 3,000 rounds before any failures occur.
The M4 is a shorter, lighter version of the M16, which made its debut during the Vietnam war. Roughly 500,000 M4s are in service, making it the rifle troops on the front lines trust with their lives.
Sen. Tom Coburn, R-Okla., a leading critic of the M4, said Thursday the Army needs to move quickly to acquire a combat rifle suited for the extreme conditions U.S. troops are fighting in.
U.S. special operations forces, with their own acquisition budget and the latitude to buy gear the other military branches can't, already are replacing their M4s with a new rifle.
"The M4 has served us well but it's not as good as it needs to be," Coburn said.
Battlefield surveys show that nearly 90 percent of soldiers are satisfied with their M4s, according to Brig. Gen. Peter Fuller, head of the Army office that buys soldier gear. Still, the rifle is continually being improved to make it even more reliable and lethal.
Fuller said he's received no official reports of flawed weapons performance at Wanat. "Until it showed up in the news, I was surprised to hear about all this," he said.
The study by Douglas Cubbison of the Army Combat Studies Institute at Fort Leavenworth, Kan., hasn't been publicly released. Copies of the study have been leaked to news organizations and are circulating on the Internet.
Cubbison's study is based on extensive interviews with Phillips and other soldiers who survived the attack at Wanat. He describes a well-coordinated attack by a highly skilled enemy that unleashed a withering barrage with AK-47 automatic rifles and rocket-propelled grenades.
The soldiers said their weapons were meticulously cared for and routinely inspected by commanders. But still the weapons had breakdowns, especially when the rifles were on full automatic, which allows hundreds of bullets to be fired a minute.
The platoon-sized unit of U.S. soldiers and about two dozen Afghan troops was shooting back with such intensity the barrels on their weapons turned white hot. The high rate of fire appears to have put a number of weapons out of commission, even though the guns are tested and built to operate in extreme conditions.
Cpl. Jonathan Ayers and Spc. Chris McKaig were firing their M4s from a position the soldiers called the "Crow's Nest." The pair would pop up together from cover, fire half a dozen rounds and then drop back down.
On one of these trips up, Ayers was killed instantly by an enemy round. McKaig soon had problems with his M4, which carries a 30-round magazine.
"My weapon was overheating," McKaig said, according to Cubbison's report. "I had shot about 12 magazines by this point already and it had only been about a half hour or so into the fight. I couldn't charge my weapon and put another round in because it was too hot, so I got mad and threw my weapon down."
The soldiers also had trouble with their M249 machine guns, a larger weapon than the M4 that can shoot up to 750 rounds per minute.
Cpl. Jason Bogar fired approximately 600 rounds from his M-249 before the weapon overheated and jammed the weapon.
Bogar was killed during the firefight, but no one saw how he died, according to the report.
Copyright 2009 The Associated Press. The information contained in the AP news report may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or otherwise distributed without the prior written authority of The Associated Press. Active hyperlinks have been inserted by AOL.
2009-10-11 09:05:08

From Michael Moores Blog

This week, the new 'Mike & Friends Blog' section will be added to In additional to my blog, I have asked a few people, like Rep. Marcy Kaptur (the Democrat from Toledo who has deservedly become the star of my movie!) and Leah Fried (who helped organize the sit-down strike at Republic Windows and Doors in Chicago), to blog here on my site. Here's a sneak peek of my first blog post. Enjoy! -- MM

Sunday, October 11th, 2009

Pilots on Food Stamps
By Michael Moore

We're on the descent from 20,000 feet in the air when the flight attendant leans over the elderly woman next to me and taps me on the shoulder.

"I'm listening to Lady Gaga," I say as I remove just one of the ear buds. I know not this Lady Gaga, but her performance last week on SNL was fascinating.

"The pilots would like to see you in the cockpit when we land," she says with a southern drawl.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"No. They have something to show you." (The last time an employee of an airline wanted to show me something it was her written reprimand for eating an in-flight meal without paying for it. "Yes," she said, "we have to pay for our own meals on board now.")

The plane landed and I stepped into the cockpit. "Read this," the first officer said. He handed me a letter from the airline to him. It was headlined "LETTER OF CONCERN." It seems this poor fellow had taken three sick days in the past year. The letter was a warning not to take another one -- or else.

"Great," I said. "Just what I want -- you coming to work sick, flying me up in the air and asking to borrow the barf bag from my seatback pocket."

He then showed me his pay stub. He took home $405 this week. My life was completely and totally in his hands for the past hour and he's paid less than the kid who delivers my pizza.

I told the guys that I have a whole section in my new movie about how pilots are treated (using pilots as only one example of how people's wages have been slashed and the middle class decimated). In the movie I interview a pilot for a major airline who made $17,000 last year. For four months he was eligible -- and received -- food stamps. Another pilot in the film has a second job as a dog walker.

"I have a second job!," the two pilots said in unison. One is a substitute teacher. The other works in a coffee shop. You know, maybe it's just me, but the two occupations whose workers shouldn't be humpin' a second job are brain surgeons and airline pilots. Call me crazy.

I told them about how Capt. "Sully" Sullenberger (the pilot who safely landed the jet in the Hudson River) had testified in Congress that no pilot he knows wants any of their children to become a pilot. Pilots, he said, are completely demoralized. He spoke of how his pay has been cut 40% and his own pension eliminated. Most of the TV news didn't cover his remarks and the congressmen quickly forgot them. They just wanted him to play the role of "HERO," but he was on a more important mission. He's in my movie.

"I hadn't heard anywhere that this stuff about the airlines is in this new movie," the pilot said.

"No, you wouldn't," I replied. "The press likes to talk about me, not the movie."

And it's true. I've been surprised (and slightly annoyed) that, with all that's been written and talked about "Capitalism: A Love Story," very little attention has been paid the mind-blowing stuff in the film: pilots on food stamps, companies secretly taking out life insurance policies on employees and hoping they die young so the company can collect, judges getting kickbacks from the private prison industry for sending innocent people (kids) to be locked up. The profit motive -- it's a killer.

Especially when your pilot started his day at 6am working at the local Starbucks.

Heres my own addition to Mikes story.
Most of the people I work with at the hospital have second jobs.
They can't afford to pay their bills on one full time salary.
Wonder how nervous the patients would feel if they knew the Nurse or Therapist taking care of them was working two full time jobs.
Think they are on top of their game working two full time jobs?
Never mind just being physically tired, the mental exhaustion is overwhelming.
When I work one extra shift I'm wiped out. And the demands of caring for sick people never ends.
The combination of my homeowners insurance and property taxes each year is over 11,000$
Yes, eleven thousand dollars.
Thank you George W Bush.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

A Mother of Columbine....

In the first detailed public remarks by any parent of the two Columbine killers, Dylan Klebold's mother says she had no idea her son was suicidal until she read his journals after the 1999 high school massacre.
Susan Klebold's essay in next month's issue of O, The Oprah Magazine, says she is still struggling to make sense of what happened when her son and Eric Harris killed 12 students and a teacher in the shooting rampage at Columbine High School in suburban Denver. Twenty-one people were injured before Klebold and Harris killed themselves.
In her first public remarks, Susan Klebold, the mother of Dylan Klebold, wrote an essay for next month's issue of O, The Oprah Magazine, about her struggle to make sense of what happened when her son and Eric Harris went on a shooting rampage at Columbine High School.
In her first public remarks, Susan Klebold, the mother of Dylan Klebold, wrote an essay for next month's issue of O, The Oprah Magazine, about her struggle to make sense of what happened when her son and Eric Harris went on a shooting rampage at Columbine High School.
"For the rest of my life, I will be haunted by the horror and anguish Dylan caused," she wrote. "I cannot look at a child in a grocery store or on the street without thinking about how my son's schoolmates spent the last moments of their lives. Dylan changed everything I believed about myself, about God, about family, and about love."
The killers' parents have repeatedly declined to talk about the massacre. They gave depositions in a lawsuit filed by families of the victims, but a judge in 2007 sealed them for 20 years after the lawsuit was settled out of court.
In her essay, Susan Klebold wrote that she didn't know her son was so disturbed.
"Dylan's participation in the massacre was impossible for me to accept until I began to connect it to his own death," she wrote in excerpts released by the magazine ahead of Tuesday's publication. "Once I saw his journals, it was clear to me that Dylan entered the school with the intention of dying there. And so in order to understand what he might have been thinking, I started to learn all I could about suicide."
In a statement with the essay, Oprah Winfrey wrote that Susan Klebold has turned down repeated interview requests but finally agreed to write an essay for O. A spokeswoman for the magazine said Klebold was not paid for the essay, and there were no plans for her to appear on Winfrey's television show.
A spokeswoman for the Klebold family said there would be no further statements.
In the essay, Klebold said her son left early for school on the day of the shootings.
"Early on April 20, I was getting dressed for work when I heard Dylan bound down the stairs and open the front door. Wondering why he was in such a hurry when he could have slept another 20 minutes, I poked my head out of the bedroom. `Dyl?' All he said was `Bye.' The front door slammed, and his car sped down the driveway. His voice had sounded sharp. I figured he was mad because he'd had to get up early to give someone a lift to class. I had no idea that I had just heard his voice for the last time."
She said she had "no inkling" how sick her son was.
"From the writings Dylan left behind, criminal psychologists have concluded that he was depressed and suicidal. When I first saw copied pages of these writings, they broke my heart. I'd had no inkling of the battle Dylan was waging in his mind."
Copyright 2009 The Associated Press. The information contained in the AP news report may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or otherwise distributed without the prior written authority of The Associated Press. Active hyperlinks have been inserted by AOL.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Our Boat finally came in!!!!

DH's check from retirement came thru...and he got approved yesterday that he was to start getting SSI checks every month!!!
We went out to the Seminole Hard Rock, and he won over 600$$$$$$

Monday, October 05, 2009

Todays outlook

We've been blessed so far this 'season.
Here it is October, and we haven't had any storms that even remotely threatened us here in SoFla.
And check out the Tropical Storm way up north heading toward the

You know you are a true Floridian when......

A good parking place has nothing to do with distance from the store, but everything to do with shade.

You know that anything under a Category 3 just isn't worth waking up for.

You have a drawer full of bathing suits, and one sweatshirt.

You know that no other grocery store can compare to Publix.

Down South' means Key West

You smirk when a game show's 'Grand Prize' is a trip or cruise to Florida

You recognize Miami-Dade as ' Northern Cuba '.

You could swim before you could read.

Every other house in your neighborhood had blue roofs in 2004-2005.

You think New York drivers licenses should only be valid in New York .

Flip-flops are everyday wear.

You know the four seasons really are: hurricane season, love bug season, tourist season and summer

You've hosted a hurricane party.

You're younger than thirty but some of your friends are over 65.

Anything under 70 is chilly.

You know what a snowbird is and when they'll leave.

You get annoyed at the tourists who feed seagulls.

A mountain is any hill 100 feet above sea level.

You think everyone from a bigger city has a northern accent.

You can pronounce Okeechobee, Kissimmee, Ichnatucknee and Withlacoochee

You've driven through Yeehaw Junction.

An alligator once walked through your neighborhood.

It's not soda, cola, or pop, it's coke, regardless of brand or flavor: 'What kinda coke you want?'

You go to a theme park for an afternoon, and know when to get on the best rides.

You were 25 when you first met someone who couldn't swim.

You can tell the difference between fire ant bites and mosquito bites.

You are on a first name basis with the Hurricane list. They aren't Hurricane Charley, Hurricane Frances...but Charley, Frances, Ivan and Jeanne.

You measure distance in minutes.

Space Mountain during the Electric Light Parade!

You understand the futility of exterminating cockroaches.

You never use an umbrella because you know the rain will be over in five minutes.

You dread love bug season.

Anything under 95 is just warm.

Bumper stickers on the pickup in front of you include: various fish, NRA, NASCAR, Go Gators, and a confederate flag.

Your winter coat is made of denim.

You have to drive north to get to The South.

You've gotten out of school early on Halloween to trick or treat before it got dark

You think a six-foot alligator is actually pretty average.

Shoes are for business meetings and church, but you HAVE worn flip flops to church before.

You understand why it's better to have a friend with a boat than to own a boat yourself.

You were five before you realized they made houses without pools.

You've worn shorts and used the A/C on Christmas.

Socks are only there for bowling.

You were 12 before you ever saw snow, or you still haven't.

Sweet tea can be served at any meal.

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The result of waking up at 3:50 am

Besides being tired right
We woke up, decided to get up and have coffee outside.
Lil one was asleep in the recliner, she was cleaning her room last night and passed out in the recliner before she got her bed back in to her room.
So as the sun came up, DH decided to go out and cast....
There are some BIG ass fish in our lake aren't there?

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

This is why we need Healthcare reform...NOW...

Monique Zimmerman-Stein has been nearly blind for the last two years from Stickler syndrome, a rare genetic disorder. She recently decided to forego her own treatment to save funds to treat her two daughters, who also suffer from the condition, reports Lane DeGregory of the St. Petersburg Times.

The family is covered under husband Gary's Blue Cross/Blue Shield plan, but that coverage only pays for 80 percent of medical expenses.

She will no longer get treatment to preserve that last slice of light. The injections that might help cost $380 after insurance, and she needs one every six weeks. She could be spending that money on her daughters' care.

If forgoing treatment might help them see, she said, "That's a choice any mom would make."

The expensive care has already forced the family out of their home, which was foreclosed, and forced them to sell their furniture and to cash in their life insurance. put together an excellent video to accompany the story:

A family fallen on hard times after their 12-year-old daughter was diagnosed with a brainstem tumor has been served foreclosure papers, reports Elizabeth Prann of local NBC affiliate WJHG.

Amber Howard underwent surgery that could only remove part of the tumor. Her father, Neil, is the only member of the family who is able to work. Amber's weak immune system requires home-schooling. But the Howards don't let the situation keep them down.

The Howard family is fascinatingly optimistic, each one picking up the other when he or she is down.

"When she has a good day, that's when we charge our batteries!"

And if it's one thing none of them is lost is hope.

Amber is living proof.

"She said to me, God came to me mom. He told me, it's not my time. But I said, you can't remember Amber, you were asleep. She said no Mom, I remember! He came over, God came over and he talked to me, he said everything would be OK, it's just not my time," Shawn said.

Kenneth Hoagland, of Nashville, Tenn., was put in jail for getting a cold, reports Janell Ross of the Tennessean. Hoagland, previously bankrupted by a week-long stay in a hospital for his diabetes, was on a health insurance waiting period for a new job when what started as a cold landed him in a hospital for two days with a $1,200 tab. He could not pay, was afraid to miss work to show up in court, and was arrested on what's known as a "body attachment."

"They fingerprinted me, took my picture and asked some questions about my medical history," he said. "When the guy who tested (my blood sugar) asked me why I was there and I told him ... he said, 'I didn't know we did that in this country.' I told him, 'Until now, I didn't either.' "
The Tennessean reports that "Hoagland, 36, is one of the hundreds of thousands of Americans -- insured and uninsured -- facing collection suits, wage garnishments and, more rarely, trips to jail because of medical debt."

Friday, September 25, 2009 she says it was rape...

But they were both on drugs, she was in bed with him, and she was participating???
I'm not sure if she even knows who started it that night, sounds like she doesn't.
Doesn't really matter I suppose, except when you are calling it rape. Why didn't she leap out of bed when she came to and found herself having sex with her Dad?
And she still continued with consensual sex..
I'm confused...and still don't want to know about her sex life with her dad.
She got pregnant????? OMG...
I believe that incest victims need to come forward, and get help, and stop whats happening to them anyway they can.
But, this strikes me as a profit making exorcism..
Coming out, telling the story is one thing, that I can respect and support 100%.
But its a book, for sale.
Just my humble opinion.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Catch of the day

Is she that desperate for publicity....

That she would actually reveal this to the world????
How sad and sick.
This should be listed under things we NEVER needed to know.
It was consensual, there was no abuse according to her, so why tell?

'One Day at a Time' star Mackenzie Phillips promised to tell a juicy family secret -- and boy does she deliver a whopper.

The actress writes in her memoir about her incestuous relationship with her father John Phillips, of Mamas and the Papas fame, PEOPLE reports.

"Don't hate my father," she tells PEOPLE.

She describes that in a haze of drugs, she slept with her father on the night before her wedding.
Actress Mackenzie Phillips dropped the father of all bombshells - she admits to a long-term sexual affair with her own dad, Mamas and the Papas singer John Phillips, who died in 2001.

"On the eve of my wedding, my father showed up, determined to stop it. I had tons of pills, and Dad had tons of everything too. Eventually I passed out on Dad's bed," she writes. Phillips was 19 at the time.

"My father was not a man with boundaries. He was full of love, and he was sick with drugs. I woke up that night from a blackout to find myself having sex with my own father," she continues.

"Had this happened before? I didn't know. All I can say is it was the first time I was aware of it. For a moment I was in my body, in that horrible truth, and then I slid back into a blackout," Phillips adds.

Their relationship developed consensually and her father even asked her to run away with him.

"One night Dad said, 'We could just run away to a country where no one would look down on us. There are countries where this is an accepted practice. Maybe Fiji.'"

The troubled star has struggled with drugs her entire life, having most recently been arrested just over a year ago in the Los Angeles Airport during a drug bust.

Mackenzie's sister, Chynna Phillips, also recalls the moment when she found out about the affair.

"She said, 'I don't know why, but I just really felt the need to call you and tell you something that I think you need to know.' And she went on to tell me that she had had an incestuous relationship with our dad for about 10 years," Chynna told

"Somebody could have dropped a piano on my head and I probably wouldn't have felt it. But I knew it was true. I mean, who in their right mind would make such a claim if it wasn't true?" she adds of her reaction.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Now I don't know who the hell Juanes is...but....

This was big news here.

At the end of his internationally televised concert in Havana's Revolution Plaza on Sunday, Sept. 20, Colombian rock superstar Juanes looked out at a crowd of more than 1 million and shouted, "Cuba libre! Cuba libre!" (Free Cuba!) It was a mantra you could take two ways: If you're a fan of Cuba's communist government, it was a cry to keep the island safe from U.S. imperialism. If you're a foe, it was a plea for the political and economic freedoms that Fidel Castro and his brother, current President Raúl Castro, have muzzled for 50 years.

Or, as Juanes probably preferred, you could assign no political message to it whatsoever and just take the star-studded concert for what he intended it to be: a chance to let Latin rhythms drown out the polarized polemics for a few hours and maybe get the U.S. and Cuba to think harder about how to improve their tortured relations.

Yeah, right. Earth to Juanes: this is Cuba we're talking about, the worn out Cold War football of every left-wing apologist and right-wing opportunist in the hemisphere. Politics enters into todo, everything. Any idealistic electric-guitar picker who thinks otherwise is just asking for the kind of grief Juanes experienced in the months leading up to Sunday's Peace Without Borders show, complete with the death threat he received from an anti-Castro militant on Twitter and the insults hurled at Miami's Cuban exiles from the newspaper Granma and other mouthpieces of the Castro regime.

Yet by most accounts, Juanes scored a success. Critics accused him of helping legitimize the Castros; they argued that the brothers wouldn't have let the king of the Latin Grammys take over the same square beneath the massive visage of Che Guevara if they thought he was a threat to their rule. In the short run, at least, the Castros won p.r. points at home and abroad by letting Juanes and other Latin luminaries perform.

But on an island where communism is the de facto state religion, it was a refreshing shock on both sides of the Florida Straits to see the hallowed Revolution Plaza packed not for a 10-hour Fidel speech but for something as joyously secular as a pop concert. As Granma itself noted afterward, there was "no political manipulation of cultural expression ... just a vote for human understanding." And while that's to the Castros' credit, the truth is that the long-term effects of that sort of nondogmatic fiesta don't always favor systems like Cuba's. Says Daniel Erikson, a senior associate at the Inter-American Dialogue in Washington and author of The Cuba Wars: "These kinds of cultural exchanges bring alternative voices that diminish the government's monopoly on information and expression."

Which is why the concert's supporters, including many in the Miami exile community, say it's time for the Obama Administration to revive the U.S.-Cuba cultural exchanges that began in the 1990s but were nixed under former President George W. Bush. "I took part in the Bay of Pigs, and I've been fighting the Castros for 50 years," says Francisco (Pepe) Hernandez, 73, president of the Cuban-American National Foundation in Miami, which backed Juanes' efforts despite protests by more hard-line exiles that included smashing the singer's CDs in Little Havana. "But it was tremendous to see Juanes sing about freedom in that plaza to the new generation of Cubans. We've thought for too long that we could topple the government in Cuba from here in Miami, but we have to approach it more from the bottom up by taking this kind of thing directly to the Cuban people."

President Obama has pledged to thaw U.S.-Cuba affairs as a way to promote democracy on the island. Though he favors keeping intact the 47-year-old trade embargo against Cuba, he eliminated restrictions on travel to Cuba for Cuban-American families, and his Administration is now in talks with Havana about improving immigration and postal service between the two countries. Erikson says the concert by Juanes, who lives in Miami, was a reminder of the "soft power tool kit" the U.S. should wield more often. "Obama needs to bring more of that kind of cultural diplomacy back into the arena," he says, "but so far it's taking a backseat."

Obama, however, seems less than impressed with such arguments. Sunday morning, in an interview with the Spanish-language television network Univisión, he said that while he didn't think events like the Juanes concert hurt U.S.-Cuba relations, "I wouldn't overstate the degree that it helps." If that indifference seems to contradict the spirit of U.S.-Cuba engagement that Obama expressed in his presidential campaign and at the Summit of the Americas earlier this year, it may be because he's found that conservatives can still give him headaches over Cuba and the Latin-American left. Republicans are currently holding up key diplomatic appointments in Congress, for example, to protest Obama's support of leftist Honduran Manuel Zelaya, who was ousted in a military coup over the summer. (That issue may become more complicated with the news Monday that Zelaya smuggled himself back into Honduras.)

Still, in his book, Erikson describes how increased cultural-exchange activity at the end of the 20th century led to more robust public discussion and independent journalism in Cuba by the start of the 21st century — enough so, he writes, that an alarmed Fidel Castro cracked down with sweeping arrests of dissidents and writers in 2003. Despite that setback, exchange advocates feel it's time to start again. The point, they say, is that even if Juanes meant nothing by shouting "Cuba libre!," it was enough if he got some of those 1 million Cubans wondering what he did mean by it.

What can I say?

I hope they put him in with the general population and that those men butt fuck him and beat him until he is nothing but a raw piece of meat...
And then I hope they REALLY hurt him.

Man Wanted in US Murders Held in Haiti
Slain Fla. Mom Endured Abuse for Years
TAMPA, Fla. (Sept. 21) — A Florida woman slain along with her five children endured regular abuse from her husband but seemed overwhelmed by trying to raise the kids herself and wanted him around as a father figure, Department of Children and Families records show.
Police in Haiti on Monday detained Mesac Damas, wanted for questioning in the slayings of his wife, Guerline Damas, and the couple's three boys and two girls in their Naples, Fla., apartment. A relative said detectives told them their throats had been slit.
Tragedy in Florida Collier County Sheriff's Office
A man wanted for questioning in the Florida slayings of his wife and their five young children was detained by police in Haiti on Monday. Mesac Damas boarded a flight to Haiti from Miami International Airport on Friday, police said. Damas, 33, has family from Haiti. Officials said he is a person of interest
Five young children and their mother were found dead in a southern Florida apartment, and authorities were searching Sunday for the woman's husband, who had left the country. Damas, 33, has family from Haiti. Officials said he is a person of interest.

The 33-year-old boarded a flight to Haiti from Miami International Airport on Friday, a day before police found the bodies.
Mesac Damas told The Associated Press at the police station where he was being held in Port-au-Prince that he had planned to surrender and that he returned to his native Caribbean nation "to say goodbye to my family."
"I was going to turn myself in. You see I've got my suit on and everything," Demas said as police led him from a backroom where he was interrogated to a jail cell.
He did not respond when asked if he killed his wife.
Just days before he left the country, a Department of Children and Families caseworker assigned to the family had made an unannounced visit to the apartment and noted in a report that the children, ages 11 months to 9 years, seemed healthy and safe.
Mesac Damas was home and dinner was cooked. The toddler was wearing a sundress and playing with her doll while the older daughter, dressed in pink, asked the caseworker if she had brought her a pink book bag, because she was going to school next year. The boys were in T-shirts and shorts and the worker didn't see any bruises or marks.
Mesac Damas was due to finish a court-ordered battery intervention course in November.
"There is no safety concern," the file reads. "Children are doing fine."
But relatives of Guerline Damas, 32, said her husband was a "loose cannon" who would take away his wife's cell phone and be rude to her family.
"You'd never know what he'd do," said her younger brother, Mackindy Dieu, 23, who lived with the couple several years ago.
Dieu said his sister wasn't open about the details of her personal life and her family didn't know she was being abused until January, when Mesac Damas was arrested and charged with misdemeanor battery after he hit his wife as she held their baby daughter in her arms.
According to DCF records, he choked her and ripped her shirt off.
"As this is occurring, the child slipped out of the mother's hand and fell to the floor," the report states.
It was one of a handful of times that sheriff's deputies had been called about domestic disputes between the couple. But this one was different: Mesac Damas was taken into custody and a restraining order filed.
The other children had been outside playing and were terrified by what had happened, a caseworker noted. In interviews, two of the older boys described seeing their parents fight regularly. The oldest, 9-year-old Michzach, told the caseworker that he would try to take all the children in a bedroom when the abuse happened.
"If he tries to call 911, dad hits him on the hand or in the head," the file noted.
When it was especially bad, Guerline Damas would sleep in her car. She hadn't had an easy life — she immigrated to Florida from Haiti as a teenager after her father was murdered in their home. She went to high school and later found work in a Publix supermarket.
"What are you doing with this guy?" Dieu said the family told her when they learned about the abuse. "You need to leave."
The couple separated — for two months. Guerline Damas began counseling at a shelter for abused women. A caseworker noted she seemed overwhelmed at the thought of raising five children by herself. She started pushing for the restraining order to be lifted.
"She believes that a father should be with his children and she has faith in him, that he will not repeat domestic violence against his wife," records from a visit in late March state.
Mesac Damas pleaded no contest to the battery charge and was given 12 months probation and ordered to take parenting classes and enroll in a battery intervention program. Around April, he moved back in.
The family seemed to make progress. Mesac Damas said he was learning to control his anger and talk with the children more. The children said they had missed their father.
The caseworker described observing a "loving relationship" between the father and children.
"This clinician believes that this family will be a solid family unit once again," the file states.
Associated Press writer Jonathan M. Katz reported from Port-Au-Prince, Haiti.
Copyright 2009 The Associated Press. The information contained in the AP news report may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or otherwise distributed without the prior written authority of The Associated Press.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

If I see one more picture.....

Or hear the names of Jon and Kate Gosselin ONE MORE TIME....I will not be able to do anything about
But LORD am I tired of hearing about these two dysfunctional parents and their personal dirty laundry.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

This breaks my heart

Think of what Elton and his partner could offer this child..just think.
And no one else will adopt him, and he will languish and die in an orphanage.

Elton John Prohibited From Adopting
Posted Monday 14 September 11:55 AM By: PopEater / Wire Services

The Ukrainian orphan Elton John wants to adopt will not go home with the singer and his longtime partner David Furnish, due to a national law that prohibits unmarried couples from adopting, The AP reports.

The singer toured a hospital for HIV-infected children in Ukraine on Saturday as part of a charity project and said that he and his partner wanted to adopt a 14-month-old, HIV-infected boy named Lev. But the country's Family, Youth and Sports Minister Yuriy Pavlenko said Ukraine does not recognize homosexual unions as marriage.

Pavlenko also said John was too old. The singer is 62 and Ukrainian law requires a parent to be no more than 45 years older than an adopted child.

"Foreign citizens who are single have no right to adopt children ... and the age difference between the adopter and the child cannot be more than 45 years," Pavlenko said. "The law is the same for everybody: for a president, for a minister, for Elton John."

John and Furnish, his longtime partner, tied the knot in 2005 in one of the first legalized civil unions in the United Kingdom.

"I don't know how we do that, but he has stolen my heart. And he has stolen David's heart and it would be wonderful if we can have a home," John said.

Pavlenko said Ukraine was grateful for the singer's charity work and expressed hope that his desire to adopt Lev would spur the domestic adoption of more children with health problems, which is still rare in Ukraine.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Ok....I had a stressful discovery today......

I've been on meds (Toprol XL) for my pressure for a while, but last month the Dr increased the dose and ordered an Echocardiogram. I had one three years ago which was fine.
Ok...well I had an Echo two weeks ago and the results show some thickening of a ventricle, likely caused by untreated high BP...and cardiac output down by 15%
Stress, heredity, and the years of exercise may have helped in the long run, but that doesn't make me feel too good right now.
So now I'm on another med....Diovan..
And of course I had a quasi panic attack..
With panic disorder, you immediately imagine the very worst symptoms that can occur...WILL OCCUR...AND TO YOU...and not just symptoms, but imminent death within five mins of taking the new pill.
But ya'll haven't heard the worst part yet.
And quit smoking of course. Thank God I only have 18 months of smoking behind me...vs years and years...
But still....I had hoped and prayed that years of running and working out would provide me with a healthy heart ...ALWAYS...
Shoulda known better.
I'll keep exercising, its part of my life, been doing it since I was 18....
This sucks the big one, and not in a good way.
Looks like my plans to retire and become a physically healthy and fit barfly in Key West won't be panning out any time soon.

Friday, September 11, 2009

This is too funny

This is from the show Wife Swap, which I do enjoy on occassion...and I definitely want to catch THIS episode when it airs.
He doesn't raise his voice, he's not rude, and he's amazingly composed and lol lol
But no respect for adults, thats for sure. Likely because he's much more intelligent than his age ( and likely more intelligent than his )

Thursday, September 10, 2009

What an embarrassment for the Republicans

WASHINGTON (Sept. 10) -- Democrats and Republicans alike are denouncing Rep. Joe Wilson for shouting "You lie" at President Barack Obama during his speech to Congress, an extraordinary breach of decorum for which the South Carolina Republican swiftly apologized.
"There'll be time enough to consider whether or not we ought to make it clear that that action is unacceptable in the House of Representatives," House Majority Leader Steny Hoyer, D-Md., said late Wednesday on WTOP radio when asked about possible punishment for Wilson. "I've talked to Republican members who share that view."
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"Let's see what he does," Hoyer said before Wilson issued an apology. "Then there's time enough to consider further action."
House Republicans did not immediately respond to a request for comment, but there was widespread condemnation of the outburst from members of both parties.
Wilson's outburst came after Obama said extending health care to all Americans who seek it would not mean insuring illegal immigrants.
"You lie!" Wilson shouted from his seat on the Republican side of the chamber.
Wilson's behavior caused a political hangover for him and possibly for the Republican critics Obama had cast as shrill and more interested in killing any health care overhaul than finding a way to provide it.
Later, Wilson was contrite.

"This evening I let my emotions get the best of me," he said in a statement. "While I disagree with the president's statement, my comments were inappropriate and regrettable. I extend sincere apologies to the president for this lack of civility."
He then tried to call Obama to apologize personally, but ended up talking with White House Chief of Staff Rahm Emanuel instead, Wilson's office said.
By that time, the congressman's Web site had crashed, he had taken a beating on his Twitter page and Democrat Rob Miller had raised thousands of unexpected dollars online for a possible rematch with Wilson in next year's midterm elections, according to Lachlan McIntosh, Miller's campaign manager.
"Everybody was stunned," Rep. Maxine Waters, D-Calif., said of Wilson's eruption. "It was just something that nobody had ever witnessed before. We all felt embarrassed."
Republicans froze; several glanced in Wilson's direction.
House Speaker Nancy Pelosi directed a fierce frown at him; first lady Michelle Obama pursed her lips and shook her head from side to side. Vice President Joe Biden looked down and shook his head too.
Obama, meanwhile, looked toward the outburst and replied, "That's not true" before going on with his speech.
Wilson appeared to consult his Blackberry for much of the rest of Obama's speech. He shook his head defiantly after several of the president's statements. When Obama finished, Wilson bolted from the chamber.
Wilson's behavior was "totally disrespectful," Sen. John McCain, R-Ariz., who had been Obama's rival in the 2008 presidential election, said on CNN. "There is no place for it in that setting, or any other, and he should apologize for it immediately."
Associated Press writers Ben Evans in Washington and Jim Davenport in Columbia, S.C., contributed to this report.
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2009-09-10 03:17:32

This brought me to tears....

As a healthcare provider, it pains and saddens me that so many do NOT seem to understand the need for healthcare reform.
I see it, live it first hand. Our present system is bloated, wrong and evil..
And I see daily the victims of it. Those without insurance, those whose illnesses cause them to run out of "days" as its called, days in the hospital is what that means.
Reform is needed, necessary and long overdue.
And I pray Obama makes it happen. I find it very ironic, that the very people who are in government fighting against nationalized health coverage because government shouldn't be controlling healthcare, well those very senators and congressmen are covered by a government controlled and sponsored health plan.
Which they will get to keep for life.
Irony, thy name is partisanship.

Sept. 9) - Text of a letter Sen. Ted Kennedy, D-Mass., wrote before his death to send President Barack Obama, as provided by the White House.

May 12, 2009
Dear Mr. President,
I wanted to write a few final words to you to express my gratitude for your repeated personal kindnesses to me — and one last time, to salute your leadership in giving our country back its future and its truth.
On a personal level, you and Michelle reached out to Vicki, to our family and me in so many different ways. You helped to make these difficult months a happy time in my life.
You also made it a time of hope for me and for our country.
When I thought of all the years, all the battles, and all the memories of my long public life, I felt confident in these closing days that while I will not be there when it happens, you will be the president who at long last signs into law the health care reform that is the great unfinished business of our society. For me, this cause stretched across decades; it has been disappointed, but never finally defeated. It was the cause of my life. And in the past year, the prospect of victory sustained me — and the work of achieving it summoned my energy and determination.
There will be struggles — there always have been — and they are already under way again. But as we moved forward in these months, I learned that you will not yield to calls to retreat — that you will stay with the cause until it is won. I saw your conviction that the time is now and witnessed your unwavering commitment and understanding that health care is a decisive issue for our future prosperity. But you have also reminded all of us that it concerns more than material things; that what we face is above all a moral issue; that at stake are not just the details of policy, but fundamental principles of social justice and the character of our country.
And so because of your vision and resolve, I came to believe that soon, very soon, affordable health coverage will be available to all, in an America where the state of a family's health will never again depend on the amount of a family's wealth. And while I will not see the victory, I was able to look forward and know that we will — yes, we will — fulfill the promise of health care in America as a right and not a privilege.
In closing, let me say again how proud I was to be part of your campaign — and proud as well to play a part in the early months of a new era of high purpose and achievement. I entered public life with a young president who inspired a generation and the world. It gives me great hope that as I leave, another young president inspires another generation and once more on America's behalf inspires the entire world.
So, I wrote this to thank you one last time as a friend — and to stand with you one last time for change and the America we can become.
At the Denver Convention where you were nominated, I said the dream lives on.
And I finished this letter with unshakable faith that the dream will be fulfilled for this generation, and preserved and enlarged for generations to come.
With deep respect and abiding affection,

All alone here

Dh had to fly back home to take care of some business....he'll only be gone till tomorrow, but it felt so odd coming home to an empty house.
For the last month, I've come home to him being here.
And...HARUMPH...the cats ignored me for several hours.
I guess since their Daddy wasn't here I wasn't worth
I will say Eddy slept on the bed with me...but thats only because Lil One wasn't home last night.
She spent the night at her friends.
And then I got up this morning and OH MY GAWD THE HORROR...THE HUMANITY....I had to feed the dogs and make my OWN COFFEE!!!!!!!
I miss my man.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Chris Brown is a dumbass loser/abuser.....

Chris Brown's Smackdown With Oprah


Days after Chris Brown appeared on 'Larry King Live' to address his felony assault of singer Rihanna, he's speaking out against Oprah Winfrey's domestic violence episode. In a new issue of PEOPLE, Brown says the show, which Winfrey "dedicated to all the Rihanna's of the world," was a "slap in the face," though the singer admits he's ready for therapy. But was speaking out against Oprah a bad career move? Some insiders think the comments will ruin him.

One source, who has direct connections to Brown's endorsement opportunities said, "He's done."

"Whatever goodwill he had, he's totally ruined it by saying that. What was he thinking? And who the hell goes up against Oprah? It just shows he doesn't think. No one is going to want him as the face of their brand," the source added.

Brown argues that he, "did a lot of stuff for her, like going to Africa and performing for her school. She could have been more helpful, like, 'OK, I'm going to help both of these people out,'" he added.

For now, Oprah's only comment comes from her rep."Oprah is very appreciative that Chris Brown performed at her school, but she takes domestic abuse very seriously. She hopes he gets the counseling he needs."

According to Brown, that's exactly his plan. "I want to understand my feelings," Brown tells PEOPLE. "I want to find out what really transpired as far as me that night. Sometimes when you're young you don't know how to express [your emotions], so I think it actually would be helpful to talk to a counselor or to somebody who has an expertise in what those [feelings] are."

The singer adds, "I wanted to take the counseling upon myself and ... just talk to someone. I just need to talk to someone. I wanted to understand the problem at hand."

Brown still doesn't believe he has a problem controlling his anger, but he accepts he might be proven wrong in therapy. "If I do, I will work with my counselor and hopefully channel my anger into something like dancing," he says. "I don't think I would get that mad again. I want to be a man, so I have to be more responsible .... I'd rather walk away."

The Brown-Rihanna Case
Chris Brown has been sentenced to five years of probation and six months of community labor for his felony assault on then-girlfriend Rihanna in February.

In his first communication with the public about the attack this summer, Brown told his fans how sorry he is about the beating incident. "I am very sad and very ashamed of what I have done... I've told Rihanna countless times and I am telling you all today that I am truly, truly sorry that I wasn't able to handle the situation both differently and better. " he said.

Back in April, Brown pleaded not guilty to both assault and criminal threat charges in court.

Brown's manager, Tina Davis, was named by TMZ as the woman behind the text message that sparked his alleged beating of Rihanna. She has since denied the claims, saying: "The rumors in circulation are false. There are no emails between Ms. Davis and Mr. Brown of the type which have been described in media reports."

Court documents revealed that the police report claims Brown allegedly assaulted Rihanna in his car after she discovered a text message on his phone. According to the report, Brown smashed her head against the window, and then punched and bit her.

TMZ obtained a photo that appears to be singer Rihanna, taken shortly after Brown allegedly beat her following a pre-Grammy party. Police have said the woman had visible injuries, and that Brown was gone from the scene when they arrived

Brown can be seen leaving the police station after being booked. According to police reports, he assaulted Rihanna in the car, and told her "I'm going to beat the s--- out of you when we get home." He also allegedly threatened to kill her after she told her assistant to call the police.

In their cover story, PEOPLE spoke with the father of Rihanna, who says he hopes his daughter is done with boyfriend Brown after his alleged assault. Shortly after, reports that Rihanna and Brown were back together in Miami emerged.PEOPLE

Brown, seen a day before the alleged attack, released a statement on Feb. 15, which read in part, "Words cannot begin to express how sorry and saddened I am over what transpired."

This is very disturbing, so....

Don't view it if you are easily upset by animal abuse..
BUT..I watched it this morning, and was so sickened, I am determined not to use products from this company...EVER...
I'm not now, nor likely ever will be, Vegan.
But if I am going to continue eating meat, I would at least like to know for sure, that the animals are humanely treated, and not culled like useless garbage.
Yes, I fish. And I'd eat what I caught if I knew that it was safe to do so.
Catch and release...I suppose its still considered by some to be cruel.....I don't know.
But I sure as hell don't compare hooking a fish to deliberately doing what these folks do daily.

Friday, September 04, 2009

She's a kitty 'ho

Ever since he arrived...Bella has been his 'ho
Follows him around and climbs in his lap..constantly..
Nothing she's ever done with me..
Its too sweet and funny

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Fishes and the lake

Now I didn't catch these two fish, they are pics I got off the web.
But I have both in my lake, and I caught one of each a few days ago.
Top pic is of a Peacock Bass, bottom is the Oscar.
The oscars aren't native, they were deliberately introduced by Aquarium farmers in Dade county during the 50's.
Now peacock bass were deliberately released as game fish and to control other fish populations.
They work out quite well here

This is from

The South Florida Butterfly peacock bass has become an extremely popular freshwater game fish. The peacock bass was introduced to the waters of south Florida back in 1984 by the fish and wildlife commission in order to aid in controlling the ever-growing number of exotic species of fish that were let go into our canals by their owners once they became too big for their tanks. The commission released 20,000 butterfly peacock fingerlings that were stocked into the major canal systems of southeast Florida. The initial stocking took place between 1984 and 1987, procured again by the FWC. Peacock bass are natural predators of the illegally introduced and abundant exotic fishes such as the African spotted tilapia and numerous other species of cichlids that had overrun sections of the canals in the metropolitan Miami-Ft. Lauderdale area

Tropical storm Erika

Somewhat weaker today, but still packing 50MPH winds.
We are monitoring this one very closely here, because its the first system that looks like it may have the potential to affect us here in SoFla.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

His and hers computer stations...LOL

We set his up opposite to mine...what would be ridiculous is if we were to sit here and IM each
He's hiding his handsome mug here

Outrageous pricing

Lil one wants to buy a textbook for her class because of course they aren't allowed to write in the books they were given ( of course )
I looked it up and was simply horrified by the cost, including used..they are anywhere from 70-100$ plus.
OUTRAGEOUS...why on earth should a paperback spiral bound book cost so much?
I realize its a college text because she is taking an AP level...but really!!!!!

Settling in nicely

He works around here like a dog...and the patio looks fantastic!!!!
Lil one appears to like him, and things are going well.
I love having him here with me full time, and having a partner to do things with. He even came to the gym with me, he sat and read while I worked out.
We seem to naturally divide chores up, he cooks, I clean dishes and vice versa.
So different from before.
I'm happy dear blog faithful, happy for the first time in forever.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

My hero to the rescue

Well...the other night, I saw one of the cats pawing at Fallys back where he was laying on the floor in the family room.
I got up to look, Fally stood up, and I initially thought it was a centipede until it began to move. I said what is this thing, its moving like a snake but its tiny.
DH jumped up and looked, and boy was he excited....he said damn, thats a Worm Snake!!!
God knows how it got into my house....
And granted it was only three inches
Found a pic online. I should have thought to take a pic before he put it outside.

Sorry for not updating sooner!!!!

Ok...I abjectly apologize...but so much has happened...
DH arrived safely...after a long delay as you all know.
My phone rang around 5:30 on thursday morning the 13th of August, and it was him,,he said..guess where I am.
He was in the driveway.
We hugged and kissed in the driveway, he came in the house and its been wonderful ever since.
He has worked like a dog here, cleaning and repairing and doing all kinds of house and yard work.
He and Lil one are getting along fine, and the fur kids love him.
I love him too.
Prayers were answered blog faithful..and I thank anyone who said a prayer or two for us and for his safety on the road.

Saturday, August 08, 2009

God bless Tennessee!!!!!!

Just thought I'd throw that out there.
You guys are the best.
And in a difficult situation, you made my man feel ok...and welcome.
And for that, I will always be grateful to that whole big ole state.
The jerks in the truck that lost the debris...the person in the passenger seat just flipped him I am going to assume that is an aberration in an otherwise wonderfully friendly state.
He's been talked to by strangers, welcomed and given advice and I can tell from his last phone call he is finally relaxing a bit.
Thank you Tennessee.

Need prayers

Ok...heres the 411
DH left his daughters in Kansas City Mo...last night...because he just wanted to be with me.
He didn't want to wait any longer, although he should have to sleep...
So he left..and this morning, I got a call on the house phone.
The answering machine is in the the phone rings, and then I hear his me...
I pick up the phone...he'd already hung up. I called him back immediately on the celly...
A pickup truck on the highway had a load with no tailgate..and a bunch of crap fell off the truck in front of him..including a FUCKING LAWN MOWER FOR PETES SAKE...
He couldn't swerve, there was an 18 he hit a cooler.
A damned plastic cooler.
It bent his radiator...and put him out of commission.
Well thank God..I had added him to my AAA..and he got a tow from them.
The tow truck driver recommended a local Firestone Garage.
His insurance agreed to pay the garage even though its not on their approved list.
He is stuck there until perhaps wednesday...because everything was closed today, and the Firestone place couldn't order his parts until Monday.
So guys, those of you who are my blog faithful..and I know you exist because I see you on my list...

Thursday, August 06, 2009

He's on his way!!!!

Packed, his son moved in to his own apartment, and he is on the road!
Right now he is outside Cheyenne Wyoming..and running thru some really nasty weather.
I am his going online to check weather conditions and locations of truck stops..
Everyone please pray for him...for us..

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Good news...

Well, it may not be good news in a small sense,..not a small sense...I can't really describe the event accurately can I?
I've been praying and specifically praying and petitioning St Jude for a miracle to help in my dire financial straits.
And..well..DH got fired yesterday.
IMHO it was a set up, because he is a teamster..and a number one man on the list..and they knew he was going to retire in three months..
So he got fired on questionable charges.
Looking at it from a where I grew up in Ny and that shit wouldn't happen in a Ny view..I was appalled..
But in the grand scheme of appears that it may have been in response to my constant and daily prayers for help and salvation financially to St Jude.
So my man will be here in a few weeks.
I'm terrified
I'm terrified he will get here and spend time with me and realize I'm worthless.
Thats what I've been led to believe.


I'm getting REALLY pissed off that I simply cannot get music to upload and add back to the blog..
I cannot figure out why it WON'T work...
Damn it all..

Monday, July 20, 2009

Butterfly and Flower

My fire spike..attracts hummers in the cool weather, and certain butterfly species year round.
If you click on the photo, you can see it much larger, thus the butterfly in a larger view as well

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Things that fascinate me..and provide ultimate regret

I have an unfortunate fascination with Quantum mechanics...physics...
But no real mathematical ability to study them.
I have a similar fascination with Astronomy, the speed of light and Quasars...Black holes..and no math ability to understand them at the basic level.
Somehow, I have the ability to hear the theories...and understand them, but without the math I cannot participate. I read Stephen Hawkings a Brief history of Time..and I was in heaven..I UNDERSTOOD...and I couldn't begin to believe that I could participate because I couldn't do the damn MATH.
I have a die hard fascination with Meteorology...
Weather fascinates me to no end..and I realize I don't have the math to help in that field as well.
I have math phobia. I was ruined a teacher named Miss Price...who assigned endless pages of long division and the the point where I hated math beyond reason. I kept saying to my mom..I know how to do it...why does she keep assigning such long endless homework pieces of the same same same....
It was homework for the sake of homework..and God knows it wasn't my fault she was a spinster living with her sister...that she was fat and alone...
But she ruined math for me...prior to her class I scored in the top percent in testing with math.
She ruined math for me...totally ruined it..and I developed the aversion to math that I still have to this day.
I KNOW that math in my fields of envy matter...but I lack the background and basics due to my induced hatred of math.
She ruined math for me....forever.

Ten things I ......

Hate about DH

1: He isn't here in south fla with me
2: He is hotter than me
3: He has a higher IQ than I do
4: I'm trying to think...
5: I'm still trying to think...
6: Oh...ok..he has slutty ho biscuit women trying to seduce him because he has that damned kevorkah
ok...I give up, thats it.

Love about DH
1: He doesn't think I'm fat and repulsive
2: I never have to say or it in yet
3: He brings me coffee in bed..
4: He brings me breakfast in bed
5: He hugs me every chance he gets
6: He doesn't sweat when he sleeps
7: He buys me presents...small little things that are so thoughtful
8: He gave me my first engagement ring..the most gorgeous one I've ever seen
9: He reads voraciously
10: He loves me unconditionally...truly..unconditionally...and we can talk about when anything upsets him or me..and not fight.

All in all...the loves outweighs the