Thursday, August 31, 2006

Okay, who can help

But to sing along with this man.
I was driving home today from the drs office, and Paradise By the Dashboard light came on. Now I don't care if I look stupid, nor that it was like a 100 freakin' degrees out....
I simply HAD to turn off the a/c, roll down the windows and sing along at the top of my lungs..LOL
I saw meatloaf in a small club in NY with a couple of guys I knew. One of them, Todd was like 6'2 and I couldn't see over the crowd, so he lifted me up onto his shoulders and I watched the show from there...
It was loud and sweaty and fun as hell..
Then...Low Rider by Santana...came on...What a sequence...

My fading rose

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leafs a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
Robert Frost' timeless poem, Nothing gold can stay. Looking at my rose bush made this poem come to my mind.
Right now it feels like life is one endless fade into another. I think I'm going stir crazy with this butt injury. I'm going to try and exercise easy today so I can work it off

Ok...My work.....again

Its dreadfully hard to be a lifesaver when you are having trouble walking...but everyone chipped in to help me..
The joint was jumping post Ernesto, and I managed to hobble around and get everyone fixed, or as fixed as they could be.
Had my usual chat at my first stop with Joe, the very sick man on the ventilator. I can get him to laugh and smile by talking a lil SpongeBob.. His sister says he is the worlds oldest hippy, he has long hair and watches cool
On to the lady who is unresponsive except to ask for pain meds, and with the hole in her stomach..I don't blame her. We're talking Grand Canyon. I check her machine and treat her, on I go
Check, double check.
On to Mr impatient who CANNOT WAIT to be extubated, but despite his readiness, the Dr hasn't called back yet..FOR FOUR HRS
What if that was YOU laying there.
Keep going, round to Ms 46, a year younger than me, pleasant sweet and terminal with Pulmonary Fibrosis.
more sweet talk to cheer her up..she needs a lung much cheering will she do? poor sweet thing
Last stop...God forgive me...A BIG FAT BABY who won't cough and will not do what he needs to do cause he's in pain.. I spend a good two hrs rapidly weaning him off the ventilator while his wife and daughter coo and fawn...and......
I'm thinking..listen Mr..I had a c section..where they pull your uterus out and sew it up on your stomach before they put you back together.want to talk about post op pain??? Harrumph!!
I don't, I coughed, he can cough
but I'm nice about it..cause the wife is all weepy and I feel bad for her
treatments, blood draws...suctioning.. and damn it all I do keep smiling. I have no earthly idea how, but I do
I was exhausted when I got home..
another day another dollar..
BTW...that is not me, nor my hair color in the medical type pic in this post..
But I did stay in a Holiday Inn Express last night :-)

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Needed my bud tonite

We went to Chilis and had a few Presidente Margaritas....
If I didn't have my friend, my bff..Laura..I'd be lost like a ship at sea without a rudder..

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

The Buzzcocks

you spurn my natural emotions you make me feel like dirt and i'm hurt and if i start a commotion i run the risk of losing you and that's worse
ever fallen in love with someone ever fallen in love in love with someone ever fallen in love in love with someone you shouldn't've fallen in love with
i can't see much of a future unless we find out what's to blame what a shame and we won't be together much longer unless we realize that we are the same
ever fallen in love with someone ever fallen in love in love with someone ever fallen in love in love with someone you shouldn't've fallen in love with
you disturb my natural emotions you make me feel like dirt and i'm hurt and if i start a commotion i'll only end up losing you and that's worse
ever fallen in love with someone ever fallen in love in love with someone ever fallen in love in love with someone you shouldn't've fallen in love with ever fallen in love with someone ever fallen in love in love with someone ever fallen in love in love with someone you shouldn't've fallen in love with fallen in love with ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn't've fallen in love with
The Buzzcocks were the first punk band to sing about love, emotions and they did it well.
I LOVE this song...
so does

Was left to fend for myself for final prep

Lil one not capable of the shutters, but thank God her friend from down the street came with a lil guy who worships all the older guys on the street..LOL..
Her friend is 14 and tall and strong...what a good kid.
they finished putting my shutters up
I hobbled out back to get my orchids, brought those in and hung them in the garage.
So I've just showered and will be putting my sore body on a heating pad .these are four plants ready to bloom, and the cocoa fiber log with the air plants ready to bloom

Monday, August 28, 2006

Right now I miss my Dad something fierce

It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Everywhere you go
Take a look in the five-and-ten, glistening once again
With candy canes and silver lanes aglow.
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas,Toys in every store,
But the prettiest sight to see is the holly that will beOn your own front door.
A pair of hopalong boots and a pistol that shoots Is the wish of Barney and Ben Dolls that will talk and will go for a walk Is the hope of Janice and Jen
And Mom and Dad can hardly wait for school to start again.
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas, Everywhere you go
There's a tree in the Grand Hotel, one in the park as well, The sturdy kind that doesn't mind the snow.
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas Soon the bells will start,
And the thing that will make them ring is the carol that you sing Right within your heart.
When I was a was magic. My dad adored the holiday, decorated the front yard with many different things...wired the property for sound..and folks used to drive by our house to look at the display. I remember a cold winters night, outside..where you could hear the snow falling like little ..chink chink sounds. Silent yet not silent. To see the manger with mary joseph and baby jesus. santa and his sleigh..ready to deliver to the good boys and girls...
It is a precious memory for me, a rare and sacred celebration of what christmas is.
so suddenly here in the midst of loss...of a potential hurricane, I remember christmas with my dad.
Fitting I think
© 2004 - All Rights Reserved.

when something dies

Is it sad? Or just natures way of thinning the herd?

My popcorn bush one year later

It survived was blown semi out of the ground..check out my prior post from when I first got the bush. Its as tall as me now..

Sunday, August 27, 2006

The front of my house, my special gardens

Those are my pineapple plants, my yellow rose bush and to the side, my white Allamanda.
I planted the allamanda for my net friend Claire who came very close to dying from lymphoma. when wilma came and stripped it bare, claire kept saying DON'T TELL ME HOW "CLAIRE " IS DEAD
low and behold...claire arose from the destruction and is healthy and beautiful. I also have three kinds of passion flower, a butterfly bush and a crepe myrtle
in a pot i have red porterweed for the hummers in fall

The only stickers on my car

I come from a family of NY firefighters, including my husband and my brother-in-law
Sept 11th is still very, very present to me. A day in which for several hrs I didn't know if my sister or bil were alive
Damaged and touched all of us intimately and lastingly
So I have the FD sticker, and my adopt a greyhound sticker.
Save a life, adopt a Greyhound

Ernesto today

I'm thinking we are in for some bad weather. I am about12 miles inland on the lower east coast. Prayers would be appreciated. The prep..holy sheet the plants alone I have to bring in, like my orchids.

I had a lil accident

I slipped and fell in the dark last night , and I have horrible pain from my butt down the back of my left thigh and inside of my left thigh..can barely walk. I won't be much help with the hurricane shutters will I now? Let alone trying to figure out how i'll be able to function at work tomorrow..
Things are going from bad to worse this weekend..

Saturday, August 26, 2006


Ok..we've been lucky so far. Its predicted to become a hurricane, and the five day brings it uncomfortably close to home. That means shutter, gas for the generator,,,more water....

And speaking of the great outdoors

I was almost caught in a thunderstorm while exercising today. Luckily I had told my lil one to send her dad after me if there was a storm that blew up while I was out.
Low and behold...One did and while i was at the farthest point away from the house..almost two miles away.
I was getting REALLY scared, when suddenly he appeared to pick me up.
Let me explain, I was almost struck by lightning once, and have been somewhat terrified of it since then. I was caught out in a storm a few months ago and took shelter in the foyer of a house around the corner from me.
I stood in there , crying and shivering during the most horrible LIGHTNING and thunder...Shiver.....
tried to run home, but I haven't be that long without knee pain and it was a tough go...
Don't get me wrong, I don't worry about being struck, I worry about surviving a strike! I took care of a kid who was struck once...veggie patch time.
NO thanks..not for me...I'd rather just die outright

Thursday, August 24, 2006

I have this pot of fennel

I found this butterfly chrysalis today...
Is this awesome or what? I am such a proud mama..i watch my plants for caterpillars etc...because that is the whole goal of my gardening.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Speaking of Pablo Neruda

I know he looks awfully old fartish...but if the man had talked like this to me..I WOULD NOT have thrown him out of bed for eating crackers..His poetry is among my faves. I also adore Frost

I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You

I do not love you except because I love you;I go from loving to not loving you,From waiting to not waiting for youMy heart moves from cold to fire.I love you only because it's you the one I love;I hate you deeply, and hating youBend to you, and the measure of my changing love for youIs that I do not see you but love you blindly.Maybe January light will consumeMy heart with its cruelRay, stealing my key to true calm.In this part of the story I am the one whoDies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

I'm ready!!!!

Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
absorbent and yellow and porous is he
I wish I lived in Bikini Bottom. It seems like all the worlds problems can be zero'd down to whether or not Plankton can steal the formula for the Krabby Patty.
If only my life was so simple

He is freakin' sweet

I own all the Family Guy DVDS..and have been known to watch them...chuckling along....

Sunday, August 06, 2006

This caterpillar was on my Popcorn bush

This is the offspring of a Sulfur. Thats why I have the popcorn bush, its a source of food for larvae of the Sulfurs.

The new decoration in my entryway

I got these lovelies in Key Largo a few weeks ago

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Tropical Storm Chris

Sigh....we are watching it carefully. All talk at the hospital of who is before during and after...
Hurricane duty that is at the hospital