Sunday, July 26, 2015

The Florida Grey Squirrel

Is so much smaller than the ones I was used to from Ny....the ones in Ny are fat with big bushy tails...here they are smaller and much less fur on the tail..They are small enough to me, to look like younguns of the Ny type lol.

Native life

Right now as I sit on my patio, I am viewing a native Corky vined Passion with Zebra Longwings lighting on it to lay eggs.

Rain , rain, don't go away

We are under a severe drought, and any rain is most welcome. This is usually the rainy season here in So Fla, but so far not so rainy. And thank God, the dutchmans pipevine is enjoying the current rain.

Tuesday, June 09, 2015

A Forever child

I remember watching Rudolph since it first came on...and I try to catch it every year. Oh sure, I have it on video, but its not the same as watching it when its almost time for The Claus to visit. I still believe...stupid? I have no clue

Thursday, April 30, 2015

My diagnosis

I've been diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder Mixed Connective Tissue Disease It sucks

On the subject of my Ex

Hearing news of his new home purchase in Key Largo, I was filled with anger. Anger for many reasons. It appeared to me that he had taken over my most secret and not so secret desires. To have a home in the Keys..to not have to work..to be...... Anyway, I have prayed hard....HARD....and suddenly came to the realization that he can't help who he is. No more than I can help who I am. I can't hold his personality against him any more than I would him to hold mine against me. I cannot tell you how much that eased my anger..and allowed me to let go.

Prayers for B

Sorry to hear of his loss

Thursday, March 19, 2015

I don't know who I am now

All my life, I always knew who I was. No matter the age, 30, 40, I was me. But now I don't know who I am. Now I'm a person who can't run. I ran my whole life. I was never a good runner....I struggled thru almost every run. But I ran. Now I live with pain every day. And when I searched my mind, I couldn't find me. I was gone. I'm someone else now. And I don't know who that is. I don't know if its the pain, the inability to run, the inability to exercise....I don't know. But I no longer know who I am. The me I am now, I seem to just live from day to day, hoping that the day I'm in isn't filled with pain. The nights are sometimes filled with dreams where I can still run, but sometimes in those dreams I'm crippled when I try to run. My life hasn't turned out how I'd hoped. LOL whose life does I guess.. Everything that made me ME has been taken from me. Everything. And I don't know who I am any more.